philophobia
• irrational fear of falling in love
"I think I fell in love."
"So?"
"I am afraid."
Namjoon never thought he would fall in love aand be head over heels for a person. No, not that he never thought of it, but he feared.
Maybe his irratio...
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I watched the people passing by, minding their own bussiness, not like me, who tried to find a way to ask her about Lee Jong-min.
I was a little anxious, what if she snapped back at me or throwed all her anger on me, when I should have gotten only a little of what she keeps inside of her.
I could have remained silent, made a comment about the weather or about the pollution. Could have thrown a dad joke I learned from Jin. But that name, Jong-min kept coming in my mind and it felt like it drilled through my skull, trying to get out, in the air.
Was it appropiate to ask her about him, even if I knew little? What if she hided some details about the whole cheating story?
There were so many posibilities that couldn't be eliminated without asking Soo, that it started to annoy me.
I was used to solving the problems in a fast time, without troubles, but now, it felt differently. It felt like this was a case made for detectives. Hard for detectives.
Soo didn't speak too much about her life, so what was I missing? I only knew Jong-min cheated on her once and she broke up with him. Swore to never talk with him again. Now she was talking with him?
I knew people sometimes forgot their promises, but a promise like this, was not benefitting the others, but her. It saved her from more pain in case he decided he wanted a harem without the girls knowing.
I knew Jisoo was capable of letting him in her life again, but I didn't want it to be like this. To be together with that douche bag.
No one should cheat in a relationship. Just fucking break up and go on, date another person.
"Do you still talk with Lee Jong-min?" I asked her, after a long silence in which we sipped from our cups of coffee.
"Mind your own bussiness." She replied fastly.
So she didn't trust me enough.
"Just let me tell you something. People don't change out of a sudden. Just because you left him doesn't matter, he won't change. Soo, don't go back to him."
"Jisoo. Not Soo. Don't push the limit, alright? If I told you to mind your own bussiness, then do so."
She got up, left a few wons on the table and left. I didn't follow her, only being able to guess how scary she was if she exploded. This was her calm attitude.
The boys weren't here to help me understand her and I had left my phone at the place where we stayed.
I called her many times Soo, but for some reason, this time, she wasn't happy with it.
