philophobia
• irrational fear of falling in love
"I think I fell in love."
"So?"
"I am afraid."
Namjoon never thought he would fall in love aand be head over heels for a person. No, not that he never thought of it, but he feared.
Maybe his irratio...
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I walked down the streets alone. In a corner of my brain, there was a hope that Namjoon would come with me.
On the other hand, I also hoped he wouldn't come, letting me alone, to process my thoughts.
How did he know about Jong-min? He saw me texting him and got the wrong idea, that I would date Jong-min again?
Jong-min was in the past and the past is past. He said people can't change. Well they change! Jong-min apologized and said that he changed and that he still loves me. That he loves me much more than before.
Visiting Daegu wasn't my only objective that day. Jong-min said that he wanted to see me and talk with me and I accepted. It wasn't like I was going to date him again or something like that.
I felt like Namjoon insulted my intelligence when he even thought of me dating him again.
I saw Jong-min and suddenly realised how bad of an idea it was to see him. In the moment I saw him, I wanted him to love me like I did. And he did, or so he said.
"Soo!" He hugged me so tight that I thought my guts will be squished out through my mouth.
"Woah, woah, slow down." I said, escaping his strong grip.
"I haven't seen you for so long, I missed you so much..."
"What do you want?" I asked him, trying to look as calm as possible and not hostile.
"I... Want you back in my life. As my girlfriend."
Who said teenagers don't have problems was never a teenager. Period.
"I need time to think." It was an indirect no and I was very sure he didn't understand what I meant with that thinking.
"Soo. Please, forgive me. I made a mistake and now I changed. I promise not to cheat on you ever again."
I still loved him and he seemed so sincere. He said he changed. He said he won't ever do it ago.
My mom always told me to try. She told me that everyone should get a second chance. Everyone, no matter what they did. She said people always change, but Namjoon said that they neber change.
Who should I listen to? Everyone says your parents are the one you trust before everyone else, thay they want the best for you.
For some reason, I decided to trust my mother.
"You still love me. I still love you. This is your second chance. Don't mess up." I told him after a long time of silence and thinking.
"Oh, Soo, you have no idea how happy I am!" He hugged me again, but this time I hugged him back.
This time, I couldn't back back. With the corner of my eye, I saw a familiar face. I tried my best to ignore the person, but I couldn't. The last person I wanted to be seen by with Jong-min.
