Bad Guy - Billie x female

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Saturday 26th January

I've been thinking. Maybe Billie was right about Amy. She doesn't give me butterflies anymore but she still cares for me and makes me feel so loved. I don't really know how I feel but I definitely know what I feel with Billie.

I'm laying around in bed even though it's 3pm, still in my pyjamas. Today is the day I'm allowed to relax, so I'm making the most of it and nothing's going to stop me.

Billie: R u busy?

Mads: No, why? :)

Billie: I'm coming over.
Read 3:14pm

...Except from that. I quickly slide out of bed and frantically search through all of my clothes for something decent to wear. I finally find some black Adidas leggings and a long sleeve red crop-top. I brush my hair into a ponytail and tidy up the mess in my room.

In a matter of seconds, the bell goes.
"I'll get it" I shout at the other two and sprint out of my bedroom towards the door. I throw it open to reveal Billie. A smile quickly takes over my face and I attack Billie with a hug.
"Ghee someone's excited to see me" she smirks and I blush in response as I close the door.
"Do you want a drink?"
"Just water please." I nod and get Billie some water. Poppy sneaks into the room and starts bouncing slightly up and down excitedly.
"Dude why are you bouncing?" I chuckle
"Because Billie's here" Pops wiggles her eyebrows at me. I roll my eyes dramatically, sigh and go back into the lounge where Billie was looking at a picture of me, Em and Pops.

"You guys are really close aren't ya?" She smiles as she puts down the frame and turns around to face me.
"Yeah, we are" I smile genuinely "also, I never asked. Why are you here?"
"I got bored and I wanted to hang out with you" she shrugs and sits down on the sofa. I sit next to her and face her.

"So, how's your girlfriend?" Billie asks and I just become even more confused.
"She's good... Why?"
"I was just wondering. How's your relationship with her? Anything new?" She watches me intently.
"No- why do you care so much?"
"I don't! I just want to know if you're okay. That's what friends do, they look out for each other, Mads" she huffs and I mentally roll my eyes.

There is a moment of silence before she spoke again. "C- can I talk to you about something?"
"Yeah of course" I smile gently
"In... private" she looks towards my room.
We enter my room and I close my door before joining Billie in sitting on my bed.

"I" She takes a harsh inhale "don't know who I am"
"In what way?" I inquire sweetly, urging her to go on.
"I'm not sure about- " she shuts her eyes tightly "ithinkimgaybutimnotsure"
I can feel my heart flutter as I hear her say that. I simply smile and bring her in for a hug. I'm going to give Billie all of the support she needs in this difficult and confusing time.

"Bil, it's okay if you're not sure who you are quite yet. You're still 18, you have plenty of time to figure it out" I tighten the hug and rub her back. I start to hear soft sobs and I pull away to see a tear escape Billie's eye.
"What's wrong?" I frown and wipe away the tear from her cheek.
"I'm just so confused" she sniffles and starts fiddling with her rings on her fingers. Placing my hand on both of hers, she gazes into my eyes and I can't help my stomach from doing somersaults.
Billie shuffles around so she's facing me directly. She places her hand on my cheek and bites her lip nervously. Her eyes glance down at my lips for a second before they find my eyes.

She leans in so her face is inches away from mine. I can feel her warm breath landing on my lips, making them tingle slightly and I can hear my heartbeat in my ears. Billie's eyes flicker from my eyes to my lips again and the butterflies are overwhelming at this point.
I can feel my cheeks get red hot as her eyes linger on my lips which are slightly parted. I also see a light shade of pink across Billie's cheeks too.

Billie's lips crash softly against mine and the world stands still for a second. It was almost as if fireworks and sparks were igniting all around us in slow motion. I can feel my heart pounding through my chest, almost as if it was going to break through my ribcage. Our mouths move in sync, dancing along to our own rhythm.

Disappointment flows through me when she pulls away. I wish I could've stayed like that forever.
"I'm so sorry, I shouldn't have done that. I know you have a girlfriend- " I cut her off by reattaching my lips to her plump soft ones. She quickly reciprocates the kiss and my right hand finds it's way to the back of her neck. This time the kiss is more passionate, tension building between us.

When we pull away, we're both out of breath, panting heavily.
"You don't know how long I've wanted to do that" She whispers and I smile, wanting to kiss her again.
"I've wanted to do that for a long time too"

My phone starts buzzing.

'Amelie😍💕'

"I- I should go" Billie quickly stands up and leaves my room. In a few seconds I hear the front door close.
I answer the call "Hey Amy"

———

The alarm clock wakes me up with its ear piercing beeping and I let out a heavy groan.
"Fuck you too" I mumble and turn it off.
"Someone's grumpy" Amelie chuckles and wraps her arms around my waist. I huff and roll over so I'm on my back. Amy starts placing kisses on my neck and then on my collarbone.
"Baby" I breathe out. She removes my top and starts kissing over my chest and I screw my eyes shut. I feel her kiss down my stomach as her hands trail down my sides and caressing my skin.
"Oh mamas, you're even dreaming about me. Is Amelie really who you want?"
I open my eyes to see Billie instead. My heartbeat quickens as she smirks, coming back up to my lips and kissing me passionately.
"No, I want you" I mumble and pull her back down onto me.

I snap awake and sit up, panting for breath.
"Babe what's wrong?" Amelie rolls over to look at me.
"Uh, j- just a dream" I stutter. Sighing, I rub my hands over my face.

I crawl out of bed and throw on some clothes before getting some breakfast.
"Hey, I'm gonna head out. I'll eat later" Amy places a kiss on my lips and then leaves the apartment.
"Later" I sigh and push around the food on my plate. Fuck Monday's.

———

I walk into the building and find my typical spot with my friends. I find myself sharing quick glances with Billie every now and then, each time blushing more. In response, Billie just smirks at me and I turn my attention back to my friends.

Eventually, the bell goes and I head for the stairs. A hand grabs my wrist, pulling me into the bathroom and into a stall.
"Billie what are you doing?" I whisper-shout. Billie slams her lips onto mine and I reciprocate, wanting more of her.
I moan onto her lips as she bites my bottom one.
We end up in a heated makeout session.

Finally, we disconnect "Billie, I can't do this..."
"What, why?" Her face expressed hurt and it made my heart ache more.
"I don't know... I just can't"
"Be with me" she looks at me with puppy eyes.
"...I have a girlfriend, Bil" I frown before I slide out of the cubicle and reluctantly go to Sociology.

The entire of Sociology, I feel Billie's eyes burning at the back of my head but I didn't dare look at her because I knew that if I did, I'd just fall for her more.

I'm so fucked for this bitch.