Bad Guy - Billie x female

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Monday 15th April

I've missed an entire week of school because of my mental health. I keep having flashbacks and it's not doing any good to me.
I have visited Billie everyday for that past 5 days hoping that she'd be ready to wake up but she hasn't.

I climb into my car and head back to the hospital again. It seems to have become a daily routine: wake up, have a flashback, get ready for the day, get in my car, drive to the hospital, spend the entire day there in hopes that my world will wake up only to find out she can't yet, go home, cry, sleep, and then repeat.

The receptionist has become a close friend of mine, I talk to her when I'm feeling down because she's one of the only people I see these days.
She's given me Billie's phone to keep until she's awake. I've had one of her songs on repeat for days and it's called Listen Before I Go. It makes me feel better but so much worse at the same time. Hearing her voice brings me comfort but the lyrics escaping her mouth fear me apart.

I go straight to her room and sit on the chair next to the window. She looks so peaceful but so ill at once and I feel so broken knowing that no time would've past for her when she wakes up. I waste away even more every hour, wallowing in my sadness.

"I miss you" I whisper and take her hand again. It feels a little warmer today but I don't take much notice of that.
"I hope you're doing okay in there" I squeeze her hand gently and just as I'm about to let go, I could swear hers squeezed mine back.
"Bil? Billie?" I stand up and look for any other signs of her waking up. I run out and find the closest doctor.
"Billie O'Connell in room 008 is waking up"
I run back to the room just before her eyes flutter open.

"Billie" I let out a sigh of relief and a doctor comes in with a clipboard.
"Am I in a hospital?" She questions weakly.
"Yeah, but you're okay now" I let a big smile cover my face as I walk towards her.
"How long was I asleep, doctor?"
My heart drops. She thinks I'm her doctor.
"I'm- I'm not your doctor..." I try to keep the smile on my face "you were asleep for 5 days"
"Oh" she nods and then turns her head away.
I want the ground to crumble underneath my feet.

She doesn't remember who I am.

I can't believe Amelie was right.

The doctor is in the corner taking notes which makes me a tiny bit nervous.
"Billie it's me, Maddie"
"Have I met you before?" She looks back over to me with a confused facial expression plastered onto her face. I swallow the lump in my throat "I'm your girlfriend, Bil".
She lets out a chuckle "haha very funny, I'm not gay brotha"
My heart breaks more if that's even possible.
My smile finally drops and tears begin to prick my eyes. I'm trying to hard to be happy that Billie is awake, I'm can't be weak around her right now.

"Are you being serious?" She looks at me worriedly because I accidentally let a tear slip.
"Y- yeah" I sit down on the chair again, attempting to cope with the information I just learned.
"Oh... I'm gay?"
"Yeah, you are" I chuckle slightly. Billie shrugs and sits up slightly so she could see me easier.
"How long?"
"2 months and 3 days"
"Oh"

The doctor decides to step in at this point.
"I'm just going to ask you some questions and you're going to answer them as honestly as possible" I says firmly and she nods along.

"What is your full name?"
"Billie Eilish Pirate Baird O'Connell"
"Date of birth?"
"18th December 2001"
"Parents?"
"Maggie Baird and Patrick O'Connell"
"Siblings?"
"Finneas O'Connell"
"Date today?"
"Uhh December the..." She furrows her eyebrows trying to remember and I frown further.
"Don't worry, next question, what's the last thing you remember?"
"Me and my brother made a song" she smiles at the memory of him.