Bad Guy - Billie x female

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Wednesday 1st May

"Billie you absolute-" Finneas cuts himself off and sits down on her bed, groaning in annoyance.
"Finish your sentence, Finn, go on" Billie scowls at him. She pushes his shoulder, provoking him.
"You absolute mistake" he doesn't hesitate.

Billie swings a punch at his face, landing right on his eye. She goes to hit him again but Finneas blocks it, pushing her away "I mean, we all know that you were an accident" he chuckles.
"Fuck you!" She yells and pushes Finneas to the floor, grasping onto his neck and pushing it down to stop him breathing.
"Billie!" I shout and attempt to pull her off of him but she spins around and pushes me full force into the wall, my head hitting it. I fall to the floor as my hearing becomes muffled and a constant ringing replaces it. My vision becomes blurred and I can't see much but I do see Billie stand up and kick Finneas in the ribs once before leaving the room.

My eyelids are heavy so I shut them. world around me goes black.

———

4pm

"Awh, fuck" I grumble from a pounding headache echoing around my skull. I lift my head up from the wall and slowly open my eyes. I look around her room and Finneas is still on the floor. I crawl over to him to see he's still breathing so I shake him awake.
He grunts as he opens his eyes.
"where is she?" He sits up and looks around the room.
"I don't know" I furrow my brows and stand up, holding out my hand for him to take. He flinches, rubbing his ribcage from the pain she inflicted.

———

It's 7pm and we still haven't found her anywhere. Her car is still parked outside so she can't have gone far but we've searched everywhere. There's only one other place she could be but that's a 30 minute walk away so I doubt she's there.

My phone starts to buzz and Billie's contact flashes on the screen.
"Billie?" I ask quietly.
"I'm not high" she sniffles "the- the pill it was only a painkiller. I hid the bag for later"
"Okay, that's good" I smile sadly even though she can't see me.
"But that means everything I did to you and Finneas back there I did while I was sober" I can hear the guilt in her voice.
"Where are you?" I ask down the phone and I just hear her breathing.
"It hurts" she whispers "fuck it hurts so much"
"I know, baby"
"It hurts too much. I can't do it!" She cries.
"Where are you? I need you to tell me Billie"
I hear sobs on the other line but nothing else.
"Billie" I say quietly "tell me, please"

The tone sounds, telling me that she hung up.
"Fuck" I mutter and speed down the stairs, slipping my shoes on. I get into my car and turn on the engine, driving towards the car park that I've seen too much these past few months.

I haul myself up the stairs as soon as I get there, going up several flights. The muscles in my legs burn but the adrenaline is helping me ignore it. I finally reach the top, incredibly out of breath and I slowly open the doors.

Billie's standing on the edge of the rooftop, on top of the ledge.
"Billie" I say gently. She turns her head towards me and as she blinks, a single drop slips from her eye. Her cheeks are stained with tears and her eyes are red and puffy.
"Please come down"

She says nothing and simply turns away again, pulling her phone out of her pocket. She plays a message with another girls voice. I can hear that she's crying heavily onto the speaker.

"Hey... it's Faith, its late so I don't think you're up right now. Uhm," she clears her throat "I'm sorry" her voice cracks "I'm sorry because I'm not strong enough. And I'm sorry that you wasted your time on me.

I just want to say... thank you? I guess. You did so much for me and tried to help me. You were my best friend. But I can't live in this world, not anymore. Remember that I love you and I'll miss you. You were everything to me. I'll see you up there, Pirate. Keep sailing.

Goodbye."

"That was the last thing she said to me" Billie finally says, her voice hoarse.

"It hurts, Maddie,

The voices in my head. They hurt."

"I know baby. I can help you" I feel a tear escape my eye and roll down my cheek.
"I couldn't help Faith" she shuffles further towards the edge.
"She wouldn't want you to do this, Billie" I whisper and she looks back at me.

"I can see her again"

"She wants you to stay. She said 'keep sailing'. Do this for her" I say desperately.

"But they tell me to do it. They say it's for the best."

"Who's they, baby?" I frown.

"The voices. They say I wasn't meant to be here in the first place and all I've done is cause trouble." She turns her view back around, looking down.

"Billie, I can stop them. I know how to get rid of them you just have to come over to me. Let me help you"
"You can stop them?" She asks.
"Yes just come to me" I smile sadly. She nods slightly and turns her body to me. I walk slowly towards her and hold my arms out. Billie climbs off of the ledge into my arms. She instantly buried her face into the crook of my neck.

"What's wrong with me?" She whimpers.
"There's nothing wrong with you" I rub her back and kiss her cheek.

———

The drive home was a long, slow ride. Billie was silent the whole time, looking out of the car window and watching as the trees went by, occasionally sniffling. It is dark and the only things lighting the road are the street lamps and the headlights.
My hand stays on her thigh the entire way back, rubbing in comfortingly. I relate to some of what she feels.
Back in Year7, 8 and the beginning of 9, I had a lot of suicidal thoughts. I used to hang my legs out of the window and sit on the windowsill. I was ready to jump. But I stayed. I don't know why, but I stayed and I'm going to make sure Billie does too.

I pull into the driveway just as her painkillers begin to wear off.
"Fuck, my head" She grumbles and climbs out of the seat. I help her inside and take her upstairs. I help her get changed and then climb into bed with her.
"I'm sorry" she whispers
"Don't be sorry. It's normal Billie. You can't be happy all the time" I stroke her cheek.
"I will help you, I promise"

She nods and cuddles into me as her breathing relaxes.
"You're going to be okay" I whisper.
"I love you" Billie sniffles.
"I love you too"

She quickly drifts off to sleep, leaving me awake with my own thoughts. To be completely honest, I have no clue what I'm doing but I do know that I'm going to be there for her when times are rough.

A/N

This is trash I'm sorry