Drowning

Chapter ten-too far down

Cole doesn't say much during class, he doesn't say anything actually. He's wearing sunglasses so I guess he has a concussion, I just let him be for a bit. I go to gym after and Cole is sitting out. I try to find him in the parking lot after school but I can't see him and I have to go to work, Heather gives me a ride.
"Another day of shitty people and even worse tips." She says.
"Work is work Heather." I say going to wait my table. Zoe came back again and I honestly just do done with her shit. I'm drying a glass when my phone rings.
"Hello?" I ask.
"Yes this is the corner shop. Your listed as Cole's contact." The woman says.
"Yes, I'm his girlfriend. Is his head acting up or something?" I ask her.
"Actually he isn't at work I was wondering if he you know if he's sick or something." She says.
"It's probably his head I'll call him." I say.
"Alright thank you." She says hanging up. I look at the phone to call him and I see there's a missed call from him, it's from a few minutes ago.
"Heather. Cover for me?" I ask.
"Yeah sure." She agrees. I hit play on Cole's voice mail;
Hey Allie, it's....it's Cole. I know your working till later and that's why I called, I knew you wouldn't pick up. I wanted to say goodbye, I can't do it anymore, life. Yesterday Tom knocked me out cold and my mother when she was sober, told me how much she hated me and couldn't wait to get me out so I'd stop bothering her and Tom. My own mom hates me. By the time you hear this you'll probably have already gotten the call that I'm dead, your my emergency contact after all. I wanted to apologize for yesterday I know I was acting like a jerk, I just realized that you're going to New York. Your gonna be a great dancer Allie I know it, but there's no point in college for me. My grades suck, I can barely graduate. I'm not getting out of this town or away from Tom. I'm not gonna hold you back, I know you would stay with me. I can't let you do that, it's better this way. I love you baby. You'll see one day this was the right path for me, goodbye Alison.
Oh my god. Fuck, no! I run to my boss.
"I need to leave. It's an emergency with my boyfriend." I say in a panicked voice.
"Go." He tells me. I run out of the diner to my car, I speed off down the road. I know where this is going, I call 911 from the car as I drive to Cole's house. I'm going fast but it feels like slow motion. I park and run out and to his door. I don't bother knocking I just run in, his mom is on the couch shockingly sober.
"Where's Cole?" I ask her.
"I don't know. He went ether to his room or to the bathroom I few minutes ago." She says. I run to his room and look around, not here. The bathroom door is locked.
"Cole!" I yell hitting the door. No answer. Fuck! I throw myself at the door. Fuck. Fuck, fuck! I throw myself at it over and over.
"What the hell are you doing?" His mom asks for the couch. Screw her, I keep throwing myself at the door. It brakes and I stumble in. I get flash backs of Sarah as soon as I see Cole. He's laying on the bathroom floor with a pill bottle in his hand. I practically dive on the floor next to him, I shake him.
"Cole. Cole. Baby. Cole, wake up." I say panicking. "Get up!" I yell. I start crying uncomfortably. I hear the ambulance. "Just hold on, please." I tell him.
"What the fuck is going on?" I hete Cole's mom ask.
"In here!" I yell. They run in with a stretcher.
"There's a heart beat." One says after putting his head to Cole's chest.
"Help him!" I yell at them. I watch as they take him away and the ambulance sounds go far away. I walk crying into the living room, Cole's mom is just sitting on the couch watching tv.
"Oh Alison, your still here. Hand the box of cigarettes will you." She tells me. I throw them at her.
"What is wrong with you!?" I ask her.
"Excuse me?" She says acting offended.
"I don't know if you notice but they just took your son to the hospital. He tried to kill himself, he could die!" I yell at her. She lights a cigarette.
"Want one?" She acts. It's like she doesn't even hear me. I walk into Cole's room to look for clues, none. I decide to take one of his sweatshirts and then I leave to go home.
"Mommy." I say walking in wearing Cole's sweetheart. My mom comes in and I just break down crying, I tell her everything then I go to my room and lay in bed alone. Heather calls, she texts, I don't answer her. My boss from the diner calls, I don't answer. My mom knocks on the door, I don't move form under the covers. It's like my soul broke, it's Sarah all over again. After a few hours my phone rings again but it's a number I don't know, it could be the hospital. I answer this one.
"Hello?" I ask my voice thick with tears.
"Yes hello. Is this a Alison-" The lady asks and I cut her off.
"Yes. Is Cole alive?" I say.
"Yes ms, your boyfriend is stable. We were able to pump his stomach in time to save him. He's asleep and he'll have to decide what to do when he wakes, but he's stable." She tells me.
"Oh thank god. You'll keep an eye on him?" I ask.
"Of course. We have him the isolation room, no phone or anything." She says.
"Ok. When he wakes up can you just tell him that I love him. Tell him Allie loves him." I tell her.
"I'll tell the nurse." She says.
"Ok, thank you so much." I say hanging up. I decide to read Heather's texts now; I covered for you with Zoe you owe me.
Text two
Oh my god Allie your mom just called me, screw the owing me. I'm sorry is he ok? Talk to me girl.
Text three
Allie please call me back. I know this must be so hard for you. Please call me.
Text four
Just text me. Please.
I decide to just text her back; Hey Heather. I don't really want to talk to anyone right now, but I'll just let you know he's alive and stable. Send. She answers right away; That's great! And I completely understand, take all the time you need but please know I'm here for you and I love you. I don't answer, I'm so crushed inside I just wanna sleep.
My alarm goes off and I shut it off and go back to bed. I don't go to school, my mom told the school what had happened with Cole and I don't have to go to school for awhile. Heather said she'd drop my work off for me, I do it as I get it but I don't leave my room. I stay in Cole's sweetheart and a part of his sweatpants too that I took from his room, I don't think he would care.
A week passes, I do my homework, sleep, eat, homework, sleep, eat and so on. I shower every once and awhile then get back in Cole's clothes. Heather calls I haven't answered yet, I text her every once and awhile. I called my boss and took some time off, Becca and Heather are covering for me. I haven't heard from the hospital or Cole. I miss him, I almost lost him and I can't take it. I love him, I told him everyday I told him the day before he tried it. He knew what Sarah's death did to me and he goes and tries to leave me. I love him and he just decided that it wasn't enough. It hurts so bad my heart feels like it's being ripped in two. God everything in me hurts. I fall back asleep, I miss Cole so much. I just want to hold him and kiss him, tell him I love him but I'm mad and hurt still.  I can't believe this, he's alive thank god but it stills feels like a big hole in my chest.