-imagine-
this is just an imagine before i make the chapter for a request :)
namjoon looked at his band mates. they were all having fun. namjoon smiled softly as he was happy for them but he felt his own smile fall.
"hey namjoon why do you look so sad?" jimin asked.
namjoon shot his head up and smiled widely.
"no i was just thinking and staring out into space." he replied back.
"oh ok, i'll just go hang out with tae."
no one noticed his pain.
except one.
i'm a good pretender
namjoon looked at his band mates. namjoon couldn't smile as he saw all his other band mates getting done with their recording in one take. 'they have such good voices. why can't i be the same...'
"namjoon it's your turn! oh wait it's namjoon's turn? this will take forever." jin said not noticing how this hurt namjoon.
no one noticed his pain.
except one.
im not really cool
namjoon looked at his band mates. they were all perfecting the dance while namjoon kept messing up. hoseok looked at namjoon a little irritated that namjoon couldn't get the dance down but then looked confused.
'what is that expression? it's definitely not a happy one.' hoseok thought and he went up to namjoon. namjoon looked up and said, "ah sorry i was thinking about what i messed up in the choreography. i'll try my best...sorry for messing up."
no one noticed his pain.
except one.
i do not belong here
namjoon looked at his band mates. he saw them do things that made the fans cheer. namjoon saw this and thought, 'if i act happy and cheerful like them, maybe people would like me. if i copied them, they would never question why i look sad....'
namjoon smiled and started to act a little more like the other members little by little. the fans started to love him more and the members never questioned anything anymore.
no one noticed his pain.
except one.
you all clearly do
"hey have u seen namjoon lately? he has been copying us for a while now! what the heck is wrong with him!" taehyung said and jimin agreed.
"why is he copying us? is he trying to get more famous? what an attention seeker. i can't believe i live with him."
"oh shut it jimin i fucking room with him! nowadays he is getting more weird. i wish i was roomed with someone else."
"sucks for u tae haha i ain't trading with you."
namjoon heard it. all of it.
"hey let's not talk to loud, he might hear and think we are bad friends."
"yeah. let's go somewhere else."
