This is my fate

Chapter 1

Aslam's POV

So many things in my life changed when I lost my brother in a car accident, I was the driving that day" I and my brother traveled to kano together for a friends wedding and on our why back we got into an accident I came out fine but my brother died on spot I sometimes think mom blames me for what happened when she looked at me I still have nightmares of that day "I became distant from everyone I became arrogant I hardly even pray because I think what's the use when I prayed for my brother not to leave me he did I don't talk much to my parents especially mom becomes I felt responsible for what happened if I had not asked khalil to travel back with me on that day, I asked him to go back with me because I had some work to take care of and he agreed I shouldn't have asked him to"I don't stay much with my parents am mostly in my best friend's house Mubarak

I don't work for my father I have my own company but I help him from time to time in managing his I don't have other siblings my parents only had me and khalil and now his gone

I have to go back home today because Mubarak and his family are traveling out today so that means I have to go back home today we stay in abuja in maitama to be precise I told my driver we were going home today instead of Mubarak's house, ever since that accident I stopped driving I get panic attacks when I try to I've been to therapy but nothing worked so I stopped

Getting home I met my mom and dad in the living room watching CNN good evening I greeted them before making my way to my room I moved my room down stairs because I couldn't take going up stairs where mine and khalil's room use to be I haven't been up stairs since that incident It's been 5 years since he passed away but it still feels like yesterday to me I feel my heart bleed when I remember I even stopped eating foods that was our favorite or going anywhere we used to love going to I stopped going to the gym because it was also our thing to do together I miss him so much that it hurts

I got to my room dropped my bag and walked into the bathroom to take a shower I got out and went into my walk in closet I wore a sweat pant and shirt I sat on my bed bringing out my laptop to start some work when I heard someone knock on my door come in I said it was my dad

Aslam can I sit he asked "yeah sure even if I say no you'd still sit he smiled and sat down a little next to me "son I hate seeing you like this so dose your mom we know what you're going through but let us in why do you keep pushing us away we are your parents and we love you, you think it's not hard on us too hmmmm but we want to be there for you stop pushing us away let us be your shoulder to cry on tell us your problems we are your parents for a reason you think you're not hurting us by being like this huh your mom hardly sleeps she's depressed because of your behavior I don't want you to answer me now but think about it and your mom is happy you're home she has smiled today after a long time with that he left my room

I couldn't do my work so I closed my laptop, turned the light off and slept. I woke up to the sound of some knocking on my door I got up and opened it, it was the house help I don't even know her name"sorry sir your mom said to tell you to come down for breakfast "tell her am not hungry with that I closed my door today been Saturday I don't have any work I plan to stay up in my room all day "I got into the bathroom for a hot shower i got dressed and sat on my bed to watch a movie am a movie freak actually just as I was about to start someone knocked on my door I groaned before saying come in I hate coming home because of things like this I don't like people in my space, it was dad "Aslam if you don't have anything doing today do you mind coming with me to see a friend he just came back to Nigeria with his family I would love to go visit it's been a while he said I didn't want to go but he'll pester me into going so I said okay he smiled and said we'll be going by 2:00pm to which I replied OK he left and I went back to watching my movie "John wick chapter 3" I've been waiting to watch it so I started watching

I went down stairs by 1:55pm I met mom and dad at the living room actually waiting for me so I said my greetings and then we left the ride was so quite except for when mom and dad say one or two things in a whisper they made sure I didn't hear a thing they were saying and actually I don't even care what it is we got to apo where dad's friend stays we got in and got out of the car dad's friend and wife came out to welcome us we got into the living room and sat they kept squealing and shouting like teenage high school girls I wish I had said no to dad I said my greetings to them I  at least didn't want to be rude to them after they all settled down I heard mom say where is she I looked at her and then smirked who's she asking of the lady mom asked got up and left after some minutes she came back with a girl by here side she looked in her early twenties mom got up and hugged her saying masha Allah she's so pretty we ate so lucky to have her "wait what why are we lucky to have her what the hell is going on dad saw the confused look on my face before clearing his throat Aslam we actually made a decision me your mom and Tasleem's psrents we got you and Tasleem married yesterday at the mosque after jumma'at prayer Tasleem here is your wife your responsibility "am I hearing things or did my dad just say he got me married to I woman I don't know that to without asking me I turned around to look at Tasleem she was already in tear oh you haven't seen anything dear Tasleem I looked back at my dad before asking him why didn't you tell me all this am not a kid dad you should have told me "Aslam I know I didn't tell yoi but you know I want the best for you I want my son back I don't know who you are anymore I want that Aslam who was always happy bubbling with life always smiling and care free not this Aslam who doesn't even look or talk to his mom your mom cries day and night because of you she hardly eats or sleeps can't you see how she looked now huh she's depressed and it hurts to see you both like this it hurts so much Aslam I feel like I failed as a father, i feel like I failed as a husband do you know how that feels please pull your self together Aslam I want that Aslam back your mom also want that Aslam back please

I got up to leave then stopped on my track "that Aslam died dad he died along with his brother,  I need to think about all this I said and walked out everyone was in tears even Tasleem and her parents, how could my parents get me married without telling me I don't need a wife I want to be alone I don't want people in my space and I certainly do not do relationship they expect me to accept all this I don't want to but one thing I don't do I disrespect my parents especially my dad "me and dad use to be so close but now I keep my distance am always alone and I want it to be just like that but I have no choice

We went back home together with Tasleem I don't even know what she looks like I didn't really look at her when we got home mom toke her to my room dad called me to his "Aslam you and Tasleem are moving out tomorrow he opened his drawer and toke out a key giving it to me this key is your house key the key to the house in gwarinpa "okay dad I said and left on my way to my room I saw mom she looked at me her faced showed she wanted to say something to me bit she didn't so I looked away and left her there standing I got into my room and saw Tasleem praying I got to my bed and laid down turning my back on her I heard here take a pillow and moved to the couch and laid on it without saying a word to me

I felt someone waking me up from sleep I open my eyes to see Tasleem uhmmmm she shutterd its time for subhi but you were still sleeping so I thought to wake you up she said "don't ever do that I said to her before getting back to my sleep

Barka da sallah in advance people💋💋💋
For those fasting may Allah reward us all😍😍