This is my fate

Chapter 7

Tasleem's POV

Everything has been going on fine between me and Aslam he's actually trying his best to be open with me letting me in on his life he got me into a catering school which am starting tomorrow in sha Allah  we spend time together, we sleep in the same room but my room actually he's still not okay about me sleeping in his room not that I don't go in there but I just don't sleep there I don't touch his stuff without asking

Heyyyy welcome back I said hugging him yeah we are that close now but more like friends "thank you he hugged me back I took his bag from him then took his hand with my free hand pulling me with him to his room I dropped the bag on his bed then turned to him helping him out of his suit jacket and tie "food iron shower which one first hmmmmm let's see do you mind choosing for me he said pulling me by my waist okay let's see shower first and then food okay I said putting my hands around his neck do you mind if I get your cloth ready for you I asked "yeah sure you can I smiled at him before I could myself out of his touch he pulled me closer making me fall on his chest I was looking at me deep in the eyes I could see so many things in his eyes I understood some but didn't understand some I could see the pain he doesn't tell me about,  the sadness, the love I could see it all so I hugged him putting my head on his chest "you know am here for you right we might not have liked each other when we got married but I accept you the way you are, i accept you as you I don't care about your flaws or anything am going to stand by you I want to be your shoulder to cry on your support, your wife, your best friend, anything you want me to be I said before looking at him in the eyes I want to be there for you just don't push me out I understand you have been through a lot but am here for you I pulled myself away trying to leave when he pulled me back to him before I could register what was going on I felt his lips on mine he was kissing me softly I kissed back before we pulled out to catch our breaths he pulled me to his chest hugging me with his hands on my waist"Tasleem I want you here with me too true we weren't married out of love but we can learn to do that am going to give it my all I know am a lot to handle but I'll try my best for you Tasleem you make me want to be a better person and am grateful for that he said kissing me on my forehead

You need to get in to shower now Mr hubby I said hitting him on the shoulder playfully "sure thing wife he said pecking my cheeks

He went into the bathroom and then I walked into his walk in closet to get his clothes out for him I dropped it on his bed after spraying perfume on it

I went down stairs to set the dinning table I sat on the couch waiting for him to come down stairs my phone started ringing it was my mother in law she calls me almost every day since we got married which is almost 9 months now

Salamu Alaikum mom "wa'alaikumul salam dear how are you doing I hope both of you are doing fine"yes Alhamdulillah mom how's dad I asked he's fine dear he traveled for a business trip he'll be back tomorrow in sha Allah, i wish him a safe trip "thank you dear how's Aslam doing she asked he's fine mom Alhamdulillah he's getting better "well it makes me happy that at least now he has you thank you dear for everything I can't never repay you "no mom don't thank me he's my husband and I know some day he'll be back to the old Aslam you know your son so don't lose hope okay with that we said our good byes

Aslam came down stairs dressed in the cloth I placed out for him a sweat pant and shirt he joined me on the dinning table I served him his food I was about to serve mine when he stopped me he sat me down pulling my chair so that I was close to him"am feeding you today he said picking up the spoon he fed me after he was done I picked up the spoon and fed him too we cleared the table together and also washed the dishes together

Wanna watch a movie he asked me "yeah sure what are we watching I asked how about you choose he said smiling at me, I could really get used to this Aslam okay I said how about we watch Alita I said okay sure he said I'll get popcorn is there anything you need I asked Aslam before heading to the kitchen no am good he answered

I was back with the popcorn Aslam was sitting on the carpet so I dropped the popcorn on the center table I was about to sit next to him when he held me hand pulling me to sit between his legs with my back on his chest and my head around his neck putting his hands around my waist we watched in silence I fell asleep in his arms not knowing

Aslam picked me up which woke me up he picked me up bridal style to his room wait what his room he never let's me sleep there I have never been on his bed he placed me on his bed then got on the other side pulling me to his chest "I know mom I didn't eavesdrop but I heard everything me and mom have been like this ever since my brother passed away I shut everyone out including mom few weeks after he died I noticed the looks mom gives me like she blamed me for what happened khalil was always her favorite while I dad when the accident happened I came out without a scratch but khalil was badly injured I asked him to travel back with me on that day we went to kano for a friends wedding but I was called back to abuja because something from work came up I asked khalil to go with me and he did I shouldn't have it was all my fault and I know mom blamed me so I shut everyone out I started having nightmares of that day I get panic attacks I don't drive anymore I stopped praying but thanks to you now I do I have never done anything haram, I stopped staying at home, i stopped hanging out with dad we used to be so close like best friends he was my best friend but it all changed because of that day

He was in tears I pained me to see him like that I could feel his pain so I pulled him to me hugging him like my life depended on it"I blamed myself for what happened I became suicidal but my parents didn't know only Mubarak and his family knew they made me see a therapist so I could get better but it didn't help I felt helpless

They helped me get better but I still have those nightmares and panic attacks am not suicidal anymore I promise he said looking at me I miss mom so much I miss my mother I sometimes feel like running to her, hugging her, telling her how much I love her but that looks she gave me still hunts me I hurts so much Tasleem I want all this to go away"shhhhhhh am here for you I'll help you I said hugging him I will always be here for you I am yours to keep I promise I said making him look at me

I got to make him sleep his head on my laps I put my hand in his hair stroking it "I will help him make this pain go away he has been through a lot he needs someone by him and I'll be that person he's pain is now my pain we are in this together

I have never been in a relationship but the few months I spent with Aslam I won't trade it for anything I felt special when he kissed me he has been trying his best to make me happy and I am happy to be with him I know I first I didn't want this but now I take it back I want to be with him I have feelings for my husband I don't know if he feels the same way but even if he doesn't I will still love him i want to spend the rest of my life with this man I won't let Noorie or anyone take that away from me speaking of her since her outburst that day I haven't heard from her not that I want to tho I looked at the sleeping form of my husband he was sleeping peacefully I placed my hand on his cheeks then his nose, then his lips I bent down and kissed him on his forehead "I love you Aslam"you have no idea how much

❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤love is in the air