Hey guys.
Ok so this chapter was a bitch to write, I think I started it over about 10 times? I'm not really 100% happy with it still, I think I could of written it better but I was having trouble :( But I'll let you decide on what you think about it!
Big, big, big thank you to elyssaeq on helping me! You should go follow her! Her link is the external link over there ->
Anyway, go read this chapter, you might of seen it coming or it might be a surprise to you :D
Next Update: I've already started to write a bit of it, so tomorrow! :)
- Bron
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I sat there frozen, not knowing what to do. All my brain was doing was yelling at me to kiss him back, but I couldn't I didn't like him like this. I felt him pull away and look at me, but I sat there starring at him with a shocked expression on my face,
"I..Uh. Better go," he stuttered as he pushed himself off my bed and hurrying out the door which caused me to finally snapped out of my shock ,
"Matt! Wai.. Damn it!" I sighed as I ran my fingers throw my hair and fell back on my bed. I pulled a pillow over my head to muffle the scream I let out into it. Why did he have to do that? I sighed as I pulled the pillow off my head, I was never good with boys, I was always so awkward around them, Sarah was the person I always went to with boys...SARAH! I pulled my laptop towards me and pulled up skype. Why couldn't she be on when I needed her! I grabbed my phone off my bed side table and tapped her messages, and quickly started to type,
'Get your ass on skype now. I need to talk to you!'
'What? What's going on, everything ok?'
'Just get on skype and I'll tell you'
Within a few minutes of me sending the last text, the incoming call tone rang around my room,
"E! What's wrong?" Sarah asked, concern all over her face,
"Matt kissed me," I blurted out, ok I hadn't really wanted to start the conversation with that but I couldn't hold it in any longer,
"Oh my god! Are you serious! That is amaz... that is not good?" She wondered as I shook my head at her,
"It's not good S, I don't think I like him like that. He's my best friend here, I don't want it to be awkward!" I sighed pulling Sully into my chest, giving him a big squeeze.
"What do you mean you don't THINK you like him like that?" she asked, raising her eyebrows at me. "I don't know.. I just..It's complicated," I sighed, shaking my head,
"E, you can tell me anything," Sarah sighed, giving me a soft smile, I took a deep breath and nodded,
"The reason it's complicated is because... I don't know if I like Matt.. or Ryan."
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I took a deep breath as I lifted my hand up and left a loud knock on Matt's bedroom door, please don't be in, please don't.. but my thoughts were interrupted when the door opened, shit.
"Hey.." I smiled, unsure of what his reaction was going to be, I wouldn't be too happy if I had just kissed someone and they had just sat there.
"Uh. Hey" he replied,
"look. I'm sorry about before, you just.. caught me off guard and I had no idea what to do!" I sighed, trying to keep myself under control, because what I'd most like to do now was hide under my blankets and never, ever come out. But Sarah convinced me that I needed to tell him the truth. He needed to know that I didn't know how I really felt about him...or his brother.
" Elena. It's fine, I get it. You don't like me like that" he sighed, shrugging his shoulders at me,
"It's not... Can we just not talk out here, can I come into your room? Please?" I asked, looking up and down the hall, hoping none was listening,
"Yeah. Ok, sure" he said before stepping aside, letting me come in. I limped into his room and stood awkwardly beside him as he closed the door behind me.
"Look. It's not that I don't like you like that. Because trust me, I actually wished I knew 100% that I liked you because you are the perfect freaking guy any girl could ask for, it's just.." I sighed, looking down at my hands, not wanting to continue the sentence that could hurt him and our friendship,
"It's just what Elena?" He asked softly, I could feel his eyes on me, I looked up at him and connected our gazes, he needed to know the truth.
"It's just.. I think.. I like someone else, as well as you." I admitted, I saw hurt cross his eyes and I'm not going to lie, it hurt me, a lot to see that I had hurt him.
"It's Ryan isn't it?" He calmly asked, the hurt no longer in his eyes. I caught my breath from his abrupt reply I hadn't been expecting that reply. I stayed silent for a while and finally slowly nodded. A tense silence fell around us both as looked we both stared at each other neither of us know what else to say,
"I think you should go Elena." Matt stated, running his hand threw his hair,
"Matt.." I asked, taking a small step towards me,
"I think you should go." He stated again, anger present in his voice, I nodded and limped over to the door, I glanced back at him and pulled open the door, I softly closed it behind me and started towards my room, I stopped short when my eyes met with the familiar ones that I didn't want to be face with at the moment.
"How much did you hear?" I asked, my voice stuttering slightly,
"I heard everything."
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DUN DUN DUNNNN, Who is it? :O
