BREATHE [✔]

14. Advice ??

Chester

Falling onto the bed defeated I closed my eyes and consciously let out the scream that was stuck in my throat all day. The frustrations I had been dealing with all day had officially bubbled up to the screams I let escape.

Who did he think he was? Making me feel like... Like. Like. Gosh, I couldn't even admit it to myself. But I know how I felt that moment his descriptions where wild if not provocative. I simply asked the question to get a short normal answer but no he had to go deeper and explain everything. Everything! Who does that honestly?

"Fuck!" I screamed.

"It helps if you get laid? " A voice screamed from the room next to mine.

"Yeah sure," I whispered to myself sarcastically.

This whole Conrad thing, whatever it was, was a bad idea. for someone who reads novels and watches movies, I had made a dumb choice. Whenever people went on trips to clear their heads and forget 'Feelings ' they always came back with more feelings and a deeper hole. Not that there were feelings to forget or anything.

I didn't realize what I was doing until Nic answered the phone. 

'Hey, Babe.'

'How was your day Baby .' I asked shifting my jeans to try and get comfortable on my bed.

'Uh okay...Are you okay? ' She said giggling.

'Yeah, why? ' I asked rolling my eyes and manoeuvring an arm so I could pull off my shirt.

'It's 2 am.' She said sounding sleepy now that I actually concentrated on her voice.

'I miss you? ' It came out as a question instead of a statement.

'Want me to come over?' She asked immediately.

My brain froze. Did I want her to come over? I did need help. But not from her my brain supplied unhelpfully but I was willing to try if my girlfriend couldn't help me with my situation who else would do that.

'Don't you have your umm Big Test tomorrow?" I tried barely remembering a vague conversation we had had.

'Yeah, I don't think you were listening to me. ' she said sounding surprised. 

'Of course, I was listening, Baby. I always listen. ' I said actually meaning it. 

'So we going to get on with this phone sex or not. '

'Someone's impatient. ' I said smirking.

Thirty minutes later I was blissfully coming in my hand with Nic's voice in my ear and slightly hard to banish flashes of Conrad's image.  To say I was mortified was an understatement. But the thing that horrified me the most was how I enjoyed it more when I thought of Conrad. It was like something was wrong in my brain and my wires were permanently crossed. I grabbed the nearest dirty shirt beside my bed and used it to clean myself up before collapsing on my bed in a haze bliss and confusion. 

I woke up to the sound of animated voices coming from my tv. I trusted towards the sound in only my boxers and a confused look on my face.

"Whatareyoudoing? " I barely mumbled.

Precè turned for a second to face me then shrugged. Went back to. . . playing video games?

"How did you get in here? "

"I made a copy of your key?"

"Why do you have a copy of my key. " 

I honestly wasn't surprise of all my friends he was the one who just did not care was always in the wrong places at the right time I guess.

"Hey, so when are you going to tell me about you and Conrad?" Precè asked turning to face me.

"Tell you what?" I said picking up the second controller.

"That you and he are a thing now," he said looking at me with the corner of his eye. Before changing the game to 2players.

"We are not a thing. " I answered facing away from him.

"Yeah right sure. Then why was he hiding under your bed almost naked that day? "

"What day?" I asked completely aware of which day he meant.

He dropped the controller and looked at me like I thought he was deranged.  He looked at me with his stupid ass piercing look that seemed to extract secrets from me without me thinking.

"How much do you love him?" Precè asked without so much as a glancing warning.

"What?" I coughed out slightly chocking.

"Did I fucking stutter?" Precè said sternly.

"I don't. " I answered honestly.

"This is sad you don't even realise you love him," he says picking up the controller again.

I just picked up my controller and pressed play.

"Is this why you have been seducing him?" Precê asked me.

"You are kidding right," I laughed " I am about as seductive as a cabbage."

"Funny how Conrad is drooling all over you then huh?"

"I don't know what you are talking about I am going to sleep."I responded standing up and going back to my bed " it's still morning right. "

He didn't answer.

15.08.19

Sorry about this chapter not my best work but I needed to get over this one to post the others I worked on. And I lost my first draft of this chapter.