Touched

Eleven, Protective

'a new part of me is starting to ache'

My body is still tired, and my lower body aches when I shift in the bed, only to find both sides of it cold. I find myself wishing for once that they were still wrapped around me, like they would be when I first arrived, and they would keep me company when I woke up to nightmares.

After everything they made my body feel last night, my craving for them has increased by ten-fold. They always stay until I fall asleep, keeping me cocooned tight between them, and what once stemmed from a need for safety is now something that makes me feel more connected to them.

I guess I don't really have the right to ask for much more than I have, and do I really need too. They keep me safe and care for me in ways I have never experienced, and they love me in their own way, and I didn't realise until just now how much I cared for them in return.

Perhaps there's a need I have for some emotional companionship in a way that they can't give me, because when it comes down to it. They are mates, and their bond will always come before ours, not that I dislike that or anything, I just am beginning to wish I had the same.

Suppose that is the danger of getting so involved with them, because as good as it can get with them, I cannot forget the barriers that are in place.

Last night was beyond chaotic, from meeting Mady and the explosion in me she set off, to the fucking threesome. I'm no prude, but I can't say any of my previous sexual experiences have been like this, and certainly not as... adventurous so to say.

When Mady started making moves, I have no idea what came over me, but I was so sure that I was going to pass out from the red-hot anger that was pumping through my body. I have no idea where it came from, and I can't decide if I resent it or am okay with how attractive and protective, I am to him.

There's a note resting on my bedside table, scrawled in Kyle's messy writing. 'Come to Rhydian's when you wake up, we'll be there all-day x'

Is it odd that the not sends a surge of affection through my veins as I start to get dressed, but a spark of worry accompanies that. They're at Rhydian's... all day just after the disaster of a dinner last night, can't mean anything good.

Sighing heavily at the fact I have to walk the castle alone, I hurry down the halls, pressed against the wall as if I may blend into it. Keep myself safe because let's be honest, my track record with getting around this place unassisted is awful.

I've only been to Rhydian's office a handful of times, and each time I have neglected to pay much attention to how I got there, so I am relying mostly on instinct. If I ever spent much time with the three of them it was in the main office and I was bored out of my mind, each and every time.

I'm hyper-aware, my body sagging massively when I see the dark oak door of Rhydian's office. With Mady roaming the halls I am whole-heartedly not okay with walking around alone and yet here I am.

"You sleep so late" Kyle states as I close the door behind me, I breathe a sigh of relief when I notice no Mady and that my body is intact. Except the room is full of tension and I am getting over the constant tension very quickly.

"Well, I guess life is pretty intense..." I trail off, receiving the message that things are definitely not okay. Sel and Kyle are sat in two of the three chairs in front of his desk, Kyle's leg is bouncing and Sel looks like she's seen a ghost.

Rhydian face gives away nothing, my nerves skyrocket and palms begin to sweat instantly. "Am I in trouble?"

Taking my seat in between Sel and Kyle, I glance between the three of them as silence envelops us, I've screwed up, must have. Or maybe he is pissed because he has found out about the three of us, cause I actually have no idea if he knows how far it has gone.