Touched

Fifteen, It Hurts

'sometimes unexpected'

I'm pulled viciously from my peaceful dream to the sound of something glass shattering, echoing loudly through the room. I shoot up from Kyle's arms the book he was reading dropping immediately, trying to soothe my shock and Selena is crawling across the bed to me in a flash.

My head is hazy and pounding slightly from the abrupt wakening, everything it too bright, my chest heaving and fingers tingling. There's a murmuring of voices still fading in the back of my head, as my eyes flicker around the room looking for what made such a noise.

"What the fuck was that?" Kyle mumbles aloud, pulling out from behind me as Selena leans against the headboard and pulls my body into her lap. Curling into her warm comfort and wanting to press my hands over my ears, eyes pinched closed tightly, as I silently beg for it to be quiet again, Selena sliding her hand over my hair to soothe me.

"Do you know what caused that?" Sel asks me quietly, her voice a soft murmur as Kyle gets back into the bed but in front of me rather than behind. "You didn't seem distressed while you were sleeping"

"I don't know" I whisper, hands shaking as they fist around her jumper. "I don't remember a bad dream, but I feel kind of off now"

"It was just the corner of the bathroom mirror and a vase, nothing important or irreparable" Kyle tells me, his voice just as soft as Sel's.

"What's happening to me?" I ask, voice cracking from the panic I was trying to press down. "I've never done that before! What if I would have hurt one of you, and I can't stop myself, I don't want to do that I swear"

"You won't hurt us little one" Kyle soothes, thumb smoothing over my damp cheek.

"Anything can trigger this, it's possible that something you dreamed triggered it. Your fine and you're safe, we know you and we trust you"

"What if you aren't safe though, we can't know anything. I don't want to hurt you" I sob, tears falling faster than Kyle can swipe at, his fingers linking into mine instead. An avalanche of emotion pouring out of me, "Please, I don't want too"

"If you don't want to hurt us, you won't" Sel comforts.

"We are right here" Kyle joins, pressing a kiss to my head and squeezing my hand again. "I'm going to go get Rhydian okay?"

I nod at him, hiccupping through my tears as he kisses me once more and makes a quick move to go and find him, just as another unanswerable question tumbles from my lips. "Why did it have to be me?"

"Because without it, you wouldn't have met us and none of us would be as happy as we are now. There are negatives and positives to everything in life, but if we choose to focus on the good, then maybe the bad won't be as bad to deal with"

"I suppose so" I choke out, nestling further into Selena's chest and relishing in the way she pulls me closer.

I was so quick in accepting what was living in me, that despite knowing the risks the gravity never set in all the way because it so often lays dormient inside my mind. I was so focused on keeping everyone I love safe that I didn't even want to dig into where any of it came from beyond speculated theories.

They all told me about the Luna Spell stories, final spell and last hope against the Vampire epidemic. Witches to proud and too confident, maybe they made a spell but it didn't save or hide them so what really was the fucking point to it.

Rhydian said I didn't hurt them because I care so deeply for them all, I have never wanted to kill someone before. I know that isn't how the spirit works but fuck, I wish it was but if it has been unsuccessful for maybe centuries now then clearly something went seriously wrong.