Poor Di

Chapter 19

Diannes pov

We arrived at Zoe and Alfie's house and we were all sat of the sofa talking for a while until Alfie wanted to show joe one of his new gadgets in the garage, so they went and left Zoe and I talking

Z: how are you feeling then
*alright but I've felt better*
Z: I'm not surprised you have been through hell and back this past month
*i guess but there is always people worse off than me in the world*
Z: bless trust me I can't think of anything worse than what you have gone through
*trust me there is*
Z: anyway have you got the throwing up under control last time I spoke to joe they had to keep giving you emergency meds
* yeah they have, they upped my dosage*
*but I always feel nauseous, I don't know wether that's a side affect of the chemo or just not enough meds*
Z: it will probably be the chemo
*yeah probably*

We sat talking for a while about some up coming projects Zoe had, when I started playing with my hair and as I pulled my hand away there was a huge clump of red hair in my hands. Zoe obviously noticed straight away as she stopped talking immediately

Z: Di are you ok
I just didn't want to answer, my hair was my whole identity. I know it's stupid but that's how people know me as "the red headed Australian" without it I will just be "the Australian"
Z: dianne are you alright
Z: shall I get joe
* no don't get joe I'll be fine he will just fuss over nothing*
* it's not even a big deal*
Z: are you sure
* yeah, anyway what were you saying about the holiday*

Zoe's PoV
The boys had disappeared into the garden to look at Alfie new stupid things he has bought, and Dianne and I were talking about life and things in general. When she started playing with her hair subconsciously and when she pulled her hand away a massive clump came with it. I could see it had bothered her but she didn't want to say anything. She said she didn't want joe but I could tell she did, but I left it as I didnt want to go against her wishes

*time skip to a few hours later*
Alfie and I had rejoined the girls and ordered food. while we were sat there eating, dianne was in the corner of the sofa trying to set up something to hook up to her feeding tube she was getting very annoyed at the slightly things today and I didn't know why.

J: are you ok babe
She just nodded
J: are you sure you look flustered
*i said yes joe what don't you understand*
J: sorry I was just asking
* well keep your questions in your head next time*
J: ok

She was being really snappy and rude but I just assumed she was overwhelmed and overtired so I left it. A few minutes later she slammed down what she was doing and asked me to take her to bed. I picked her up and carried her to the bedroom
J: are you ok, is something going on
*yes I'm fine joe like I said earlier*
J: there is obviously something wrong so just tell me and I can try help
*there isn't anything wrong just leave me alone*
J: fine I was only trying to be nice but obviously that's such a crime

I walked out and slammed the door, I know I was a bit harsh but I wanted to help but all she keeps doing is shutting me down or telling me to go away so I just did