AWAKE [boyxboy]

CHAPTER 16: DRIFTING AWAY

I know, maybe masyado pang maaga para ibigay sa kanya ang bagay na ito, ang bagay na hindi ko pa naibibigay sa kahit na kanino. Pero wala naman akong balak ibigay ito sa ibang tao basta basta, wala akong balak maranasan ito sa ibang tao! Kay Richo ko lang ibibigay ito, kay Richo ko lang mararanasan ito!

The tension is increasing. The body temperature is getting warmer. We're both catching our breaths. I was pulling his hair while he's piercing me with his lips. I could feel his teeth clenching right to my skin but it doesn't hurt, actually it feels good.

Ngayon ko lang napansin na wala na pala sa katawan ko ang mga suot ko kanina and yes, Richo and I sharing this one romantic moment in his bed skin to skin. The only thing I can't remove around me is this blue-band around my left arm. His hands are moving all over me, ramdam ko ang bawat haplos ni Richo na nagdudulot ng pagtayo ng mga balahibo sa katawan ko.

His eyes are glowing just like his skin at amoy na amoy ko ang bango niya, yung amoy na natural na lumalabas sa balat niya. His hair smells like the conditioner I also used earlier when I took my shower, and the way he tasted will make me crave him forever.

When he kisses me I also could feel those little beard growing right on his chin, this adds the thrill tonight cause I feel very ticklish every time. Like a fair game, as to what he does to me I return the favor back and savour him.

But, this is not a game.

This is love.

Love Making.

Hindi ko alam kung gaano katagal nang magkadikit ang aming mga labi, hindi ko alam kung gaano na katagal kaming hindi nakakapagsalita at hindi ko na alam kung gaano katagal na kaming magkasama.

Ang alam ko lang, buong oras ko ngayon ay nakatuon kay Richo.

He stopped kissing me and stared through my eyes. Could eyes make love too?

"What are you looking at?" I ask, my voice getting husky.

"You're so beautiful, Fabian" he said, while brushing my hair away from my face

"You too, Richo!" he smiled, I caress my fingers to the shape of his smile. He held my waist and he told me to layback. So I did and relaxed my body right away.

I didn't know that would be the start of it all! Something I never felt before, something I would never ever imagine doing to anybody.

He whispers "Just relax baby" as he opens the pack of condom. He tried his best to make me feel relaxed and comfortable. I never felt as safe as how I feel right now. I don't have to tell him it's my first time cause he already know this by his heart. He went very slow and patient with me as he tried to do it. As we became one the burning sensation started to rise but the way it makes it hurt also makes it feel good at the same time. Ang sarap pala sa pakiramdam na nagagawa mo ito sa taong mahal mo? Sa taong alam mong worth it and deserving! I like to think this is not all just from lust, this is all coming from love. Making love is an experience we are taking for granted and we often forget how valuable it is for having the chance to do it with someone we really love.

Sometimes, you can't just give people what they want. Most of the time you must have to choose, on who you want to give it because not 'everybody' is worth it!

The way he moves around me sends chills all over my body – a feeling that is very foreign for me. He was moaning my name around my neck, and I was holding tightly on the pillow, trying to distress and release the tension my body is feeling.

Everything's gone.

Every thing that happened miserably today is gone as I choose to set them aside.