request by @1-800-CrackWhore
sorry this was shit. I'm tired.
8/24/19
word count: 890 words
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heard you got a heart, let me see
heard you got a heart, let me see
I need you to split that thing with me
yeah, I need you to split that thing with me, girl
I always wanted y/n's love.
I craved it.
I was jealous of every boy because I couldn't call her mine.
but now, she's mine.
and I'm her's.
until I broke her heart.
I guess it was the excitement of liking a girl with no pda.
no labels.
just a "crush".
our relationship was great at first.
but then I got bored.
I didn't feel loved by anyone anymore.
I felt numb.
did we really ever act like a couple?
no.
our actions would never tell, only our words.
but actions speak louder than words.
heard you're skipping meals, losing sleep
well, I've been doing the same honestly
well, I look like a fucking walking corpse, girl
rumors spread that y/n no longer had a heart, nor a smile at that point.
she would never have an appetite with food in front of her.
and to be honest, neither did I.
I didn't care to sleep.
and it looks like she didn't either.
Say the words, "R.I.P." 'cause
My tolerance is going up
And I'm getting numb to the feeling, yeah
And I've been abusing drugs
I'm getting numb to the feeling, yeah
I need you to show me love
'Cause I'm getting numb to the feeling, yeah
I need you to ride me harder when we fuck
'Cause I'm getting numb to the feeling, woah
I'm getting numb to the feeling
I'm getting numb to the feeling, yeah
I'm getting numb to the feeling
Yeah, I'm getting numb to the feeling, woah
I need you to show me love
'Cause I'm getting numb to the feeling, yeah
My tolerance is going up
And I'm getting numb to the feeling
I put such dangerous into my body only for the feeling.
it lets me feel something or instead distracts me from y/n.
I miss y/n's love.
feeling it was great.
but I still never feel a thing from anyone.
Yeah, I heard you get drunk every weekend, no
I heard you and your friends have been geekin' out, yeah
Don't freak them out, the weed is loud, yeah
The weed is loud, yeah
Don't you get 'em in the brains, girl
Dropped from heaven, now we're in the plains, girl
Hide up in them trees, like I, like I mean it, yeah, oh
I know y/n goes to all the highschool parties thrown.
everyone talks about it.
she'll hangout with the guys she makes-out with.
everyone posts about it.
I smell the weed on her everytime she walks by me in the hallway.
I hear the rumors of the incident being my fault, which it is, but it still bothers me.
I regret our whole relationship.
I should've just kept my feelings to myself; never should've admitted them.
My tolerance is going up
And I'm getting numb to the feeling, yeah
And I've been abusing drugs
I'm getting numb to the feeling, yeah
I need you to show me love
'Cause I'm getting numb to the feeling
I need you to ride me harder when we fuck
'Cause I'm getting numb to the feeling, woah
I'm getting numb to the feeling
Yeah, I'm getting numb to the feeling, yeah
I'm getting numb to the feeling
I'm getting numb to the feeling
My tolerance is going up
And I'm getting numb to the feeling, woah, shit
I need you to see me, love
I'm getting numb to the feeling
Yeah, yeah, yeah
I'm getting, I'm getting, I'm getting numb, babe
Look what you done, babe
You were the one
Yeah, you were the one, baby
Mamacita saw the reaper
She been weepin', sleeping
She been sleeping
Popping Xanies every weekend, it's a depend
Find me on the deep end
I don't need friends
I've been swimmin', swimmin'
I got steep ends
I don't really care about your life if you ain't talking money get the fuck away, yeah
I know y/n hides her broken heart.
she hides the fact that she does care, because she really does.
she does as much drugs as she can to hide it.
she was always so innocent and never thought about failing school, but now she does.
she doesn't care about it anymore.
all because of me.
but I'm still numb. I never cared, and I never will.
'Cause I'm getting numb to the feeling
I need you to show me love
I'm getting numb to the feeling, yeah
My tolerance is going up
'Cause I'm getting numb to the feeling, yeah
Yeah, I need you to ride me harder when we fuck
'Cause I'm gettin' numb, babe, yeah
I'm getting, I'm getting, I'm getting numb to the feeling
I'm getting numb to the feeling
I'm getting, I'm getting numb to the feeling
I'm getting numb to the feeling
I'm getting, I'm getting numb to the feeling
What is you feeling?
See what you did there?
I'm getting numb to the feeling, woah
Yeah, yeah
I'm getting, I'm getting numb, oh
I'm getting numb, babe
