We stayed in hospital a total of 3 days, Dr Lucas wanted to ensure Greyson was feeding properly before they allowed us to go home, but once they seen what Greyson was capable of - the nurses actually gave him the nickname 'gutso' due to the amount of times he would feed, they were happy to let us go, they also made sure I was comfortable with expressing my milk incase I needed too. I was ready to go home and I know Jackson was too, the only time he had left us was when our parents would visit and he would go home and shower.
Once we were finally home we it took awhile to get used to everything, eventually finding our own little groove, I handled all of the day time feeding, Jackson cooked breakfast, prepared lunch and dinner, every second night he would do the after dinner feed which was usually around 3am, We had been sleeping in the same bed so it was easier to keep track of whose turn it was, neither of us were getting a lot of sleep but it was totally worth it.
When the weather was warm enough during the day we would put Greyson in his pram, and walk to the park where we would lay on a blanket and read or just talk, sometimes we would walk to one of the little coffee shops around the corner where we would meet Carla and Mason, who were expecting their little one any moment.
It didn't take long for two weeks to pass and Tylers homecoming grew closer as did Jacksons time to return to work. Tyler didn't know about Greyson yet - there was no way to contact him when he was on active duty and I hadn't heard from him since he left in January, there were so many things I wished I could have spoken to him about, His 21st birthday on February 15th, the birthing classes but it was just not possible.
I stood staring at my gorgeous little boy sleeping soundly in his cot when I felt Jacksons arm circle around my waist, I leaned my head against his shoulder placing my hands on top of his,
"I wouldn't have gotten through this without you Jax" he kissed the top of my shoulder,
"You are stronger than you think you are Star and you would've done it because you had to for our son, uhhh your son" I turned to face him, his cheeks slightly pink,
"You deserve to be his father Jackson, at the moment you ARE the only father he knows. Look I know when Tyler comes home he will absolutely be an amazing Dad to this little boy, but everything you have done for me these past few months, god Jackson, you do deserve it" His dark grey eyes stared down at me, his hold on my waist tightening,
"I really want to kiss you Skye" he sighed pressing his lips to my forehead "but I won't" he sighed and pulled back, not breaking eye contact "When I kiss you and I will kiss you again one day, it will be because you beg me to kiss you, because you NEED me to taste your lips" he pulled me to his chest, my heart racing at his words, "One day".
My sleep tonight had been restless, looking over at the clock it read 2am and it was Jacksons turn to god damn it of course a night I didn't have to be awake was a night I couldn't sleep.
I headed to the kitchen grabbing some water before going to check on Greyson thinking if he were awake early I would feed him so Jax didn't have to worry, but once I was in his room I knew there was no such luck just by the sound of Greysons breathing.
My heart skipped a beat when I noticed the figure sitting in the rocking chair, the room was mostly dark except for the small amount of light which shone in from the hallway, I didn't have perfect vision but enough to see the shape had their head in their hands resting on their knees,
"Jesus Christ Jackson, What the hell - are you Ok?
"Wrong brother love" This voice was cold and distant but familiar and I would recognise that deep husky tone anywhere. I fumbled with the night light next to the cot turning it on,
"Tyler" I whispered, I sank to my knees is front of him placing my hands on his which he harshly pulled away, he studied my face as if seeking answers, he looked tired and not I've been on a plane, train or bus for 48 hours tired but actually exhausted, his eyes seemed red as if he'd been crying.
"Ty, when did you get here?"
"A few hours ago, I was walking past this room and I saw him in the cot, I didn't know he" his voice broke, he had been crying and it was still fresh. "I am too late this time Skye" confused I answered,
"What are you too late for Tyler" I asked him gently, a single tear rolled down his cheek,
"I lost you" , A few too many things happened at once in the next few minutes for me to be able to process what Tyler was saying to me, an ear piercing cry from Greyson caused us both to jump to our feet, Jackson staggered into the room not a minute later, pausing briefly when he saw me,
"Skye, wasn't it my turn" he said sleepily, then noticing his brother "Tyler" he took big strides across the room and pulled his brother into an embrace as I took Greyson from the crib "Its good to have you home bro" he playfully punched Tyler on the arm before walking over to me signalling for me to pass Greyson over.
"You guys should talk" Jackson said "Let me take my noisy boy, I'll feed him and keep him with me for tonight, you guys spend some time together"
"Thanks Jax" I gave Greyson a kiss on the cheek and then did the same to Jackson, turning I grabbed Tyler by the hand and led him into our bedroom closing the door. I waited a few minutes for him to speak but the silence went on to long and I just couldn't take it any more - I cracked,
"What is this Tyler?, what is going on?, You have shown up here in the middle of the night, You speak of things I do not understand, "Has something happened Tyler?" Tyler moved to the bed sitting down he sighed,
"You sleep in his bed" tears spring to his eyes as he starts talking "When I got home I came straight here - to our room but the bed was empty, I checked the babies room next but you weren't there either so I"
"Went to Jacksons room" I finished, Tyler nodded,
"I have been gone for so long Skye, I couldn't even call you and Jacksons been here, he's been in love with you his whole life and " I silenced him with a kiss, It took him a moment to realise this was actually happening before he kissed me back, a full Tyler Archer kiss with all his emotions poured in and this one screamed heartbreak,
"Tyler" I was kneeling in front of him again and cupped his face with my hands "You are my husband, I love you so much. Jackson and I are not together, we are trying to raise a baby - YOUR baby Ty, everything single thing we have been doing is for YOUR son"
His green eyes blinked to reveal the sparkling emeralds as he brought his hand up tracing my cheek with his thumb,
"When I told you forever Ty, I meant it"
"Skye, I am so sorry, clearly I"
"Stop Ok, Just stop Tyler, you have been gone a long time ok, and I cannot imagine what it must have felt like seeing me in bed with your brother, but you need to trust me because having a baby is hard work Ty and Jackson has been with me every step of the way filling in for you, But your home now and your son is waiting to meet you, your wife has missed you - so much and needs you to hold her" He stood up pulling me with him
"I love you Skye, I'm sorry for my meltdown" he kissed my cheek, "I am sorry for being away for so long" he kissed my forehead, "I am sorry I wasn't here when you gave birth to our son" he kissed my other cheek "I am sorry I messed up as soon as I came home" he kissed my nose, "And I am sorry I didn't do this the minute I saw you tonight" He pulled me closer and dipped me towards to ground his lips slamming on to mine, tongue pushing its was into my mouth, his kiss filled with love, desire and hunger - this was my Tyler - he was home.
He pulled away breathless and brought us back up to a standing position, he kissed me softly on the lips
"Can I meet my son?" I giggled at him
"Get some sleep tonight Ty, you are going to need it" I Kissed his cheek and crawled into our bed, it wasn't too long later I felt him crawl in behind me wrapping his arms around me and pulling me as close as possible to him,
"Goodnight Wifey"
"Goodnight Hubby" - these next few months were going to be amazing!!
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Falling - COMPLETED
Roman d'amourHe shapes my entire world, everything I was was a reflection of the two of us. There wasn't an entire memory I had that he wasn't apart of, he had always been a part of my life, my best friend - for 15 years. My first friend, my first crush, my fir...
