I picked the tests up throwing 2 in the bin and 1 in the front pocket of my hoodie then cleaned up the mess I had made in the bathroom before splashing water on my face and making my way outside.
No way was I ready to go home, so I walked, and walked, finally ending up at the botanical gardens, one of my favourite places, the place Tyler had asked me to be his girlfriend, every now and then I would take the test out of my pocket and check the result to see if it had changed, nope still positive.
My phone rang Tyler's name face lighting up the screen - ugh I really wasn't ready for that yet either so I ignored it and the next 4th, 5th and 6th attempt he made, selfish of me I know - I just needed a minute. My phone rang again, this time a different face highlighted on my screen - Jackson.
I walked again, at least this time I had a destination. Reaching the auto shop Jackson worked at I headed around the back to the apartment and began climbing the stairs, lightly knocking when I reached the top not entirely sure if I actually wanted him to answer, but it didn't take him long, he wasn't wearing a shirt, his trackies hanging from his hips loosely, feet bare, he looked anxious, his hair was messy from where he had ran his hand through it one too many times.
"Skye, thank fuck" he lunged toward me enveloping me in his arms,
"Are you alone?" I asked in a whisper,
"What, Skye what the fuck?" he dragged me inside his apartment closing the door behind him,
"Are you alone?" I asked again, louder more demanding,
"Yes Skye, I'm alone, what the fuck is going on, Why the hell is Tyler calling me asking me where you are?"
I took the test out of my pocket and handed it to Jackson without saying a word, moving further into his house I reached the bed and sat on the edge. Looking around it was a studio apartment that looks like it had recently been renovated, it was nice and spacious had its own kitchen area and Jackson kept it tidy which was impressive for any man let alone him, there was a door to the side which I presumed to be a bathroom,
"Skye" his tone was confused as he eyes remained focused on the test in his hands,
"I like this place" I murmured, I was avoiding it, I knew once he said it, it would be a reality,
"Skye" he called out to me again,
"Its actually pretty clean too Jackson"
"SKYE" he yelled this time getting my attention, I hadn't noticed he had moved to a kneeling position in front of me, my face locked onto his,
"You're pregnant?" his voice was softer now half asking half confirming. Looking into the deep grey eyes I had known almost my entire life I could feel my body letting go, tears filled mine and fell down my cheeks,
"I am so scared Jax, what do I do?"
"What did Tyler say Skye" he seemed a bit angry, so I shook my head at him,
"He doesn't know Jax, only you" he grabbed my hands in his,
"I have a million questions running through my head right now Skye, I don't know if I should ask them" he moved up to the bed and pulled me into his embrace, he just held me, he never made any attempts to pull away or move, he never even spoke, he knew what I needed right then was to feel safe and protected and Jackson always gave me that. It was me who made the first move, dragging my head back and looking into his eyes,
"Can I have a shower?" he nodded, standing up my hand in his he led me to the bathroom, grabbing a towel on the way, he even turned the water on for me before kissing the top of my head and leaving.
The hot water seemed to give me some clarity - there was no way I was going to run away from this in fear, I was strong! I dried myself off dressing in the same tights I had worn here minus the panties and Jackson had left me a shirt of his to wear, I put my hair into a bun and went to find Jackson.
He stood in the kitchen, the smell of frying bacon hit my nose making my mouth water,
"I thought you might be hungry" he spoke without facing me, I took a place at his small dining table he passed me a toasted bacon sandwich,
"Its just bacon and butter, I didn't know if you were feeling, well you know" he was smiling at me shyly,
"This is perfect" I said the first mouthful already gone,
"Do you want something to drink, I have juice, water - can you drink coffee??" I laughed at him,
"Juice is fine please" we ate in silence as i devoured a total of 3 bacon sandwiches, they actually seemed to settle my nausea.
"You know there was a time I thought that the day you told me you were pregnant, it would be with our baby" he paused "Do you really love him Skye" I looked at him, confused,
"Yes, of course I love him Jackson. What are you doing"
"It's just, Skye if any part of you is unsure about Tyler, I will do this with you, I will raise this kid with you"
"Jax stop" I kept my voice soft "I love your brother, I am in love with your brother and he deserves the right to know and the right to choose what he wants to do, how much he wants to be involved, I would never force his decision, I need you Jackson, you are my best friend and I don't think I could do this without you but it will be Tylers decision" I took a deep breath and exhaled shakily,
"I need you to call Tyler, Please Jax" Jackson nodded standing up he kissed my cheek before making the call.
11 minutes from the time Jackson made the call to Tyler knocking on the door, Jax made some excuse about work he needed to finish to give Ty and I some space, but letting me know he would be close by if I needed him.
Tylers body had waves of emotions as I grabbed his hand and led him to the bed sitting down, he actually looked stressed and for the first time since we had been together there were worry lines on his forehead,
"Skye" he started "If you're breaking up with me maybe you should just get it over and done with, If this is about you and Jax, I don't"
"Can you just stop talking Tyler please, let me say what I need to say Ok" he nodded his eyes remaining in the floor, steadying myself I took a few deep breaths,
"I'm pregnant" I spoke slowly and clearly, Ty did not move an inch, his body was frozen, "God I am really scared Ty, we are so young and you are only just starting your job" I paused to look at him still frozen in his place, "Ty I am not going to hold this over you Ok, you can choose what you want to do and I will try and understand" His eyes were still focused on the floor, after a few moments he spoke,
"Ok" - wait that was it??
"Ummmm, Ok? Ok? do you think I could maybe get a few more words there", he turned so his full body was facing me, one leg still hanging off the bed, the other crossed in front of him,
"Skye, I love you, more than I ever thought it was possible to love someone, you know we haven't exactly been careful these past few months so for me to tell you I'm extremely shocked would be a lie" he sighed and ran his hand through his hair, "Life with me won't be easy, I will always work hard to support you, my family - but my job, being a soldier it is all I know how to do, and it puts me away from you possibly for months at a time, You are the one that needs to decide here Skye, but I do promise you, no one will ever love you or our baby more than I will love you, I promise to always come home to you, If you can deal with this Skye, I am all in baby"
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Falling - COMPLETED
RomanceHe shapes my entire world, everything I was was a reflection of the two of us. There wasn't an entire memory I had that he wasn't apart of, he had always been a part of my life, my best friend - for 15 years. My first friend, my first crush, my fir...
