Helpless (gxg)

XXI- Punishment

Tessa urged me off of her lap and she disappeared into the bathroom for a moment. She came back with a bottle of some sort of lotion. "To help with the pain afterwards," she explained as she set it on the bedside table. "Come here, baby." I crawled across the bed towards her as she sat on the edge of the bed. "Lay across my lap." 

I shivered as I positioned myself, my legs barely reaching the floor from my position while my hands were left free to clutch at the bedding. 

"I am going to begin with a warm up. I am only going to pull your dress up, I will not move your panties, understand?" 

"Yes, Tessa." 

"Good girl." Tessa began to rub her hand in circles across my bottom, pushing gently. She followed it with gentle pinches, judging where the most fat was and where the bones were while sending trills of pain through me. When that was finished, she gave soft pats that became gradually harder until my ass was a light shade of pink and felt as though it was glowing softy due to the stinging. "I am going to deliver the 5 spanks now. I would like you to count them, please." 

"Yes, Tessa." The first came directly across my right cheek and I cried "One!" The next was on the left and I bit down a wail but still said "Two!" 

The third and fourth were on my sit spots, directly at the tops of my thighs. I couldn't hold in a whimper at those. "Three! Four!" 

She stopped for a moment, sliding her hand over the spots that still hurt. Then she pulled back and brought her hand down once more. "Five!" 

The tears slid down my face quietly as Tessa applied the cream, soothing and shushing me. When she was done, she cradled me in her arms. "You did so well, my angel. You are so good for me, you took your punishment so well. You are forgiven for lying to me, I promise. You are safe, I am here, I am not going to let you go." 

I sobbed into her shoulder for the thousandth time, the last of my barriors coming tumbling down. I trusted her enough to take care of me, to be vulnerable in front of her while knowiong that she wouldn't take it too far. She was exactly who I needed, and I hoped that I could be the same thing for her. All I wanted was to be cared for and safe, and she gave me that. She let me break and was there to pick up the pieces. This is what the mate bond was supposed to be, something that pulled together two people who were perfect for each other and let them build something wonderful. I still had no idea what I was bringing, though.

When I had worn myself out with my crying, I pushed myself up so I was sitting on her lap, even if it was a bit gingerly. "Tessa? Do you um... do you think that I'm broken? I couldn't even get over you being upset with me over something that was my fault without needing you to... without needing that."

Tessa cradled my head softly in her hand and I leaned against it, loving the gentle touch. "Of course not, my dove. It matters not that you need that, only that I am able to provide it for you. I will not allow you to be overwhelmed and I do need your help, but I am capable of reading you rather easily. You have shown me so much of yourself, and I am so proud of you for that. You are amazing and strong and beautiful and all, all mine. You are forever mine."

I hummed in soft agreement, but one part stood out to me. "I like it when you say that."

"Oh? Which part?" Tessa teased.

"All of it. Calling me your dove, saying that I'm yours. It makes me feel less... helpless, like I always have you to look out for me."

"Then I will be sure to never stop reminding you." I snuggled further into her.

"Thank you."

We spent hours like that and at some point, I drifted off into a warm, loving sleep. I woke up in our bed, limbs tangled with Tessa's, blankets piled on top of me. She must have carried me there while I was asleep. The thought brought a happy smile to my face as I thought that he never would have- no. I wouldn't think about him. I had Tessa, I had everything I could want. I wasn't healed yet, but I was on my way. I could have everything, all I had to do was... live. I would meet the pack, continue to see Doctor Jameson, and, most importantly, love Tessa.

She began to shift next to me, stretching her long, toned limbs and wrapping them around me. "How did you sleep, my love?"

"Good... you?"

"I slept very well, thank you for asking. Do you want to make something or shall we join the pack for breakfast?" Her voice was still gravelly from sleep and I supressed the shudder that it threatens to send through me, knowing that she would feel it.

I shrug. "Up to you."

"I want you to choose. Either that or we can stay in bed all day." Tessa's eyes showed me that she knew exactly what her voice did to me. "I am positive we can find something to entertain ourselves with." Her voice dropped low and sweet and this time I couldn't stop my reaction. My heartrate sped slightly and my tongue flicked out to wet my chapped lips. She followed the gesture, bringing a finger up to run along my bottom lip, causing my mouth to fall open in response. Then, of course, my stomach growled.

Tessa let out a loud laugh, her hands falling away from me. "I believe that answers it! Up we get, would you prefer to dress before or after we eat?" She rolled over, sliding out of bed gracefully and heading into the closet.

"Um... before, I guess." I was slightly puzzled. Why did my stomach rumbling mean we had to get up right then? I guess she didn't want me to go hungry...

That thought washed away the confusion and replaced it with contentment at being so well taken care of. Tessa popped out of the closet, her energy slightly contangious. "Get up, my dear. We want to beat the rush!"

I giggled. "I'm coming, I'm coming!" I hopped up, going to join her in the closet right as I was hit in the chest by clothing coming flying out of the closet.

"I picked something out for you, I do hope you like it. Do you mind?" I shake my head at her silliness and excitement.

"Of course, it's fine. Let me go get dressed."

Tessa stepped out in front of me, somehow already changed. "I think you can change right here."

I flushed. My voice hushed, I said, "But you're in here."

"I know. That is the point, my love. I would greatly enjoy a slight... modeling." She placed another piece of clothing on top of my pile. "There."

I knew exactly what I was going to do. Tessa was going to regret having me do this. I had the perfect revenge plan. Hopefully, it ended with us spending a bit more time in bed than she had planned...