forget you || byler

ten

will was dying

well more specifically he was being eaten by a demodog

he had been getting these nightmares for years but they'd just started to get worse

because he could feel the pain

and he was terrified

and no one was there to save him
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"will, will" mike said frantically shaking wills shoulders, "cmon please wake up"

will sat up quickly, his head almost colliding with mike's.

the second he opened his eyes, heaving sobs consumed him. he couldn't breathe. everything hurt.

he just wanted everything to stop.

mike felt a tear run down his own cheek as he wrapped him arms around will.

"hey, hey it's okay i've got you" he said softly rubbing his hand in circles on wills back

will buried his head in the crook of mike's neck

mike could feel wills tears soaking his shirt but he didn't care, he simply pressed his lips onto wills forehead, "it's okay will" he whispered softly, trying to comfort the crying boy

"i- i cant breath" will stuttered, tears still streaming down his face

"will" mike started but will quickly interrupted him

"i- i was dying i-in my dream" will said struggling to form a sentence, "a-and the thing is i t-think that if i d-died no one would care"

mike froze, not believing what he was hearing

"will that's not true" he said quickly

"y-yes it is, mom and jonathan have eachother, the party has eachother, a-and you have el, i have no one"

"you have me,always"

"no, no i don't mike. you didn't even talk to me for months" will stammered, while wrapping his hands in mike's t-shirt in an effort to be even closer to the other boy.

with those words mike's heart broke.

he wished he could take everything back

he wished he could redo it and talk to will for hours instead of el

but again, it was too late

"y-you forgot about me, y-you'd do that if i d-died too. o-only eddie w-would remember" will seemed to be choking on his tears at this point and start to gasp for air

"hey will look at me" mike said gently turning wills head so the boys were making eye contact, "take deep breaths byers" mike pulled will into his lap and held him to his chest.

mike tried to ignore the jealously bubbling in his stomach at the mention of eddies name but it was impossible to

"i would care will, i would" he spoke softly, "and i would never forget you... you are the most important person to me in the world. i couldn't imagine living in a world without you in it. i wouldn't want to. i never would. no one matters more than you" mike spoke softly, tracing his thumb along wills cheek

"what about el" will sadly whispered

"you've always been my number one will, since the day i met you." mike bit his lip and continued. "i'm really sorry, i was a dick. if i could i would go back and call you all those times instead of el, i swear. when you go back to derry i will call you for hours each day. no el, you. that's how it should be. because i lo- care about you a lot. and i'm gonna miss you".

"really" will whispered

"really," mike whispered back

their faces were so close now that their noses were almost touching, mike couldn't breathe

"mikey, would that change if" will paused

"if?" mike asked slowly, running his fingers through wills hair

"if i li-" will stopped himself and shook his head, "never mind." will turned away

"hey cmon, you can tell me anything will"

"no- not this"

"why not"

"i just cant okay mike? you'd hate me"

"i could never hate you byers" mike said softly, he reached down and slowly wiped a tear off of will face, his fingers brushed wills lips and both boys cheeks turned bright red. mike couldn't tear his gaze away from wills lips

he wasn't gay but then why did he want to hold will and kiss will the way he kissed el.

"i'll tell you if you answer one question and truthfully" will spoke startling mike from his thoughts

mike hesitated before saying, "okay"

"do you, do you think you could ever... like a boy? like romantically or sumn" will muttered, looking anywhere but at mike

mike froze, "i- i'm not gay will. im with el, i couldn't be gay. you cant like both" he stammered in a panicked voice

"that's not true" will said softly

"what do you mean that's not true"

"steve does"

"steve does what?"

"likes both"

"oh..."

that made so much sense to mike, im that moment everything came together and he knew. 

he knew in that moment that he was falling for will byers and had been for years