Bad Reputation. ||Shawn Mendes ||

The Spot

*Alex's Pov*

A few weeks go by. Everythings different. I don't talk to Shawn, I don't talk to anyone really. I sit with the others at lunch but I don't say anything I just sit there and swirl my frock through my food until the bell goes. Everything makes me feel like I'm back to that summer.

"Go to the spot at 7.30 later," Sami says as I close my locker.

"I don't feel like going out and drinking," I say walking down the hall.

"You are going you don't have a choice," Sami says, "And I won't leave you alone until you say you will be there."

"Fine, I'll go," I say.

I go home and I put on some joggers and a hoodie. I throw my hair into a pony tail and I go on my phone until I have to leave. I pull up and start walking up the trail. The last time I was here was the first day I met Shawn and I fell off the rock. I have a scar on me knee from that day. It feels like a lifetime ago since that day and everything is different now. I'm different now, my whole life is different now.

When I make it up to the spot I see one person in a hoodie with there hood looking out over the view. When they hear me they turn around. It's the one person I would have never have thought of seeing here. Shawn.

"What the fuck are you doing here?" I say.

"I had to talk to you," Shawn says, every step he takes towards me I take one back.

"Shawn, I can't," I say going to walk away.

"Please wait, I got you a daffodil," Shawn says.

"You remembered," I say, "Fine, you have one minuet," I say and we sit down on the rock.

"Alex I'm so sorry, I'm sorry I didn't believe you, I'm sorry I wasn't different but I can't live without you and I know that sounds dramatic and maybe it is, but Alex, since that day we met I haven't been able to get you out of my head and when I think about you I can't help but smile and I hate how we ended things and ever since we did I have been killing myself, I know I should have let you tell me what was going on and I know I shouldn't have listened to what people were saying but it's hard not to listen when so many people are saying something and I know that's not an excuse. I'm just so sorry and I know you will probably never trust me again and I know that it's all my fault, but I just wanted to tell you that I'm sorry and my life is going to suck if you aren't in it," Shawn says looking me in the eyes.

"You are right you should have listened and I want to trust you I really do, it's just going to take some time and I want to be friends with you but it will never be the same because we can't go back to how things were before everything," I say with a tear rolling down my face.

"I get it," Shawn says wiping away my tears.

"I have to go now, Hayden will be looking for me," I say standing up and walking back down the trail.

What do I do now?