Broken

Chapter Twenty One

(Small Author Note: After this one, there will only be one more chapter left that will be posted on Halloween•-• Also on that same day, the first chapter of the next story will be posted)

Chester's Point of View:

"Go away," I said quietly and glared hatefully at Jason.

"What?" He questioned and stepped forward a little. I felt Mike's hands around my waist but I pulled away from him and jumped forward.

"Go away!" I yelled right into Jason's face. He stumbled backwards and I came forward more to make him walk backwards out the door. "I said go away! I never want to see your sorry face again!"

I slammed the door shut after he passed the threshold and I broke into tears, memories flooding back. I sat on the floor and buried my eyes into my hands. Mike crouched down beside me and wrapped his arms around me. I snuggled into his warm chest and stopped crying as I simply listened to his heartbeat.

"Who was that?" Phoenix spoke up quietly in a small voice after seeing my outburst. "Chester, what's been going on in your life that you aren't telling us? You can trust us, we love you."

"I love you guys too, it's just hard to talk about." I sighed and pulled away from Mike a bit to see Phoenix and the other guys watching us. "That was Jason. He... He sexually abused me for a few years when I was a kid."

"What?! And he had the nerve to come here?" Brad snapped and I shrugged my shoulders.

"I suppose so. When I was young, I began getting bullied constantly, there was no escaping it. People seemed to love seeing me hurt and it got so far to the point where I began self harming at an extremely young age. My parents caught me and sent me to a therapist for not even a week, when they got a divorce. My mom moved away and my dad began neglecting me. The first day I went to the therapists, I met Jason."

"Did he know you were vulnerable?" Joe asked, completely serious. This is the first time ever I've seen Joe like this fully.

"Yeah, he asked me if I was The Cutter when he came up to me for the first time. We became friends and then he began using me. I turned to drugs which lead to alcohol and suicide attempts... It was way to much for a teenager."

"I'll say," Brad sighed. "That's horrible and my god, I hope you're completely done with that stuff! Mike mentioned your self harm to me when you got back from the hospital... So I suppose that's not over yet."

"I haven't cut myself in a long time, I think I'm over it finally, but it can always trigger again." I told him and he nodded sadly. "Anyway, that's the gist of it."

"I wish you told us sooner, Chaz." Rob spoke up with a sigh right after.

"So you guys could've found a new vocalist?" I asked quietly.

"No!" They all yelled at the same time, making me jump from surprise.

"You better be kidding, Chaz! We fucking love the shit out of you!" Brad said and came up to hug me tightly.

"We just would've liked to know earlier so we could've helped you and stopped it from getting so far to the point where you put yourself in a coma!" Rob also came over and put his arms around me.

"We really do love you, Ches. You better start believing it because we will never ever stop," Joe grinned and joined in to hug me with the others.

"Bro, I don't know how anyone could ever hurt you and trust me, none of us ever will. We'll be there for you through thick and thin!" Phoenix beamed and put his arms around the other guys because there wasn't any room to hug me. I felt arms circle around my waist from behind and I smiled warmly.

"I love you more than they do," Mike whispered and everyone broke the hug off and began calling him out.

"You didn't go there, Shinoda!" Brad yelled and playfully smacked his shoulder.

"Nu uh! No way you do, Mike!" Joe chimed in and grabbed my arm and pulled me into a huge hug. I laughed as Mike gasped dramatically and pulled me out of his grasp and into his own.

"Mine," Mike stated and planted a kiss firmly on my lips to seal his words. When he pulled away, Joe stuck his tongue out at him.

"BLAH!" He plainly said before grabbing Phoenix's arm and walking out the door. Brad and Rob not far behind.

"We should sleep, bae." Mike yawned.

"Bae?" I echoed. "What the hell?"

"Just go with it, bae." He called me again and I tilted my head as I watched him climb into the bed. "What?"

"What the hell is bae?" I asked again and he grinned.

"You're bae!" He beamed and I crawled into bed next to him. "On the Internet, it's supposed to mean 'Before Anyone Else' but I heard in Dutch it means poo or something."

"So, you just called me shit?" I giggled and he shook his head.

"Don't use such an ugly word, Chazzy! Use poo or bae." He said and I rolled my eyes.

"So you're calling me the Dutch meaning?" I asked and I felt his lips connect to my cheek as he covered both our bodies with a blanket.

"No, my Chazzy, you are before anyone else." He said and gave me a few quick kisses all over my face, making me giggle again. "You're so cute when you laugh."

"You're so cute when you're you,"

"That was cheesy," Mike said, pulling a face.

"Says the person who called me bae?!" I laughed and he wrapped his arms around me.

"Shut up, bae. I love you," He chuckled and I held in my laughter.

"I love you too, poo." I said seriously and didn't get to close my eyes before Mike began laughing and rolling out of the bed.

"I just..." He bursted into more laughter and went into the bathroom with a laughing frenzy spilling out of him. I grinned and laid on my side on the bed, closing my eyes.