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hey arin

you're finally onlineee

hello yoh

were you waiting for me to go online?

yupp

im so sorry for making you wait i crashed to bed when i got home last night, and i slept til 2 pm kshsksjs

we didnt get to talk last night after you left the arena, i couldnt even send you home, so i at least wanted to talk to you before we sleep

but i couldnt do that because as soon as we reached home, we already crashed to bed as well

it's okayyyy

i understand that you're tired

and didnt i told you already? im a strong independent woman now, i can handle myself haha

so just rest well there, okay?

yeah i will

take care of yourself too

dont get hurt

im sorry | backspace

i know there are a lot of schedules and promotions ahead, but you can do it

thanks arinie, you're the source of my strength

also

i have something to tell you

and that is?

when promotion period starts, i may not be able to chat you as much as i could, the manager will confiscate our phones from every now and then, and we may not have enough time to do the things we usually do because of the schedules and all

oh... | backspace

its okayyyy

you dont need my permission for that yohyoh

but i want to inform you, i dont want you to feel like ive left you hanging or anything, you dont deserve that

and thanks for that, yohan

but really, you dont need to feel oblige about me

we're just bestfriends afterall
seen

oh...  | backspace

yeah, we're just bestfriends

yeahhh

arin, can we talk?

but we're already talking haha

i mean seriously

oh okay

what do you wanna talk about?

us

what do you mean..?

what are we?

bestest bestfriends right?

eachother's special persons

that's what you've told me before

i know im in no place to ask, but is that just what we're gonna be? nothing more and just that?

well, yeah, for now

for now? how long is now? it's been years already

yoh, you know the situation, i cant be with you and you cant be with me, even if you want to, even if i want to, even if we want to

you understand right?

i understand, but even my understanding has its ends too

im sorry

i want to be with you so bad

but i wanna reach this dream too

can i have both dreams?

you cant

yoh, we gotta accept that there are some things that just couldnt be

and some of that thing, is being there in your place and being with me at the same time

you have to choose

and id rather you choose your dream

while me? you dont need to worry about me

i'll stay

i'll stay being your bestfriend

it hurts

im sorry

loving you hurts

it hurts to know that ill always just be a bestfriend to you

you have feelings for me, but it'll always be just that

it hurts but im okay

yohan...

no its okay

after this talk, we'll go back to the way we are as if this didnt happened at all

ill continue loving you

maybe you'll continue loving me too

i will

but then again, that's just that

dont worry arin

nothing will change

aside from the fact that i wont be available from time to time now and we wont talk much

this is him choosing his dream over me and that's okay | backspace

but ill still try to contact you when i missed you too much

which i know will happen a lot hahaha

anticipate that, okay?

my arinie?

he's back to normal as if i didnt hurted him at all | backspace

of course i will!

try to contact me as much as you can, okay?

of course

ill wait for you

you have no idea how much im gonna try to contact you as much as i can, dont underestimate me haha

and yeah, please do wait for me

i love you so much, ill always goa back to you, my home

same here, my home