pick me. kim yohan

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hey you guys, im sorry if i cant reply to those who sends me dm, believe me, i want to reply, but i couldnt, for some reason. ill try to fix it, but i make no promises. anyway, here's the updatee!

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why eonnie?

somi-yah

what do you mean, why?

why cant you and yohan oppa be together?

just because

but you two were perfect for eachother!

you knew him better than anyone, and he knew you better than anyone too, you grew up together and watch eachother in journey to the person you are now

that's a deep bond you got there

it's destiny, you two are fated without even trying

but, why?

why cant you be together, eonnie?

destiny?

i dont think so

the timing was never right for us

what do you mean, eonnie?

i mean, you dont have to tell me if you're not comfortable with the topic

it's okay

here goes

when yohan told me he likes me way back at high school under the fireworks, i was the happiest girl in the planet that time

but i still cant accept his confession

because im full of shits and issues

my mom and dad just separated that time, we found out that my dad has another woman, and a apparently a new family of his own. i made me feel really upset and betrayed, since then, i stopped believing in commitments

my mom and dad had been together for fifteen years, and they just threw it all away in a snap, so the teen-ager me thought that such things as commitment doesnt last

im afraid of losing yohan, i dont even think i can live without him, so i didnt want to have a commitment with him, even if i like him a lot

thank God he understood, and that made me fell to him deeper than i already am when he understood me

but i still couldnt be with him

i couldnt lose him

but, now?

how is it with you guys?

we remained bestfriends through the years

and all those time with him, he made me believe in love and commitments again

i was ready to be with him that time when we are graduating high school

but once again, the timing isnt right

he had to go away, he was chosen for a scholarship in this elite university and i couldnt be with him there

i was afraid that if i confess to him, we wouldnt work because of the distance and differences, so i ended up not confessing again

we didnt talk for months

until one day, i found out that he didnt enter the elite university and auditioned in an idol company instead, and apparently enterred one of the most famous audition shows in korea

hOLD UP, YOU DIDNT KNOW HE ENTERRED PRODUCE?

NOOO

i was just shocked when he told me to open the tv and i saw his face there!

HAHAHAHAH YOHAN OPPA IS A LEGEND

i love that legend

HAFATSGSFAHAH!

but we still cant be together now

but, whyyyy?

you believe in love again, and he isnt in the sports uni anymore, so whyyyy? 😩

cant you see, somi-yah?

what, eonnie?

he's on his way to his dream, i dont want to hold him back from that, instead i should support him and cheer him on

but cant you do that while being together?

you know it more than anyone, it's like an unsaid rule in being an idol, you cant be together with anyone, you should be available for your fans

that's messed up but it's the reality

you're right 😔

and yohan cant be caught in any dating rumour

especially now when he's just starting, his name is already well known but we couldnt afford to have any complications

i just want him to reach his dream

and until then, i'll just wait for him

eonnieee 😭

your mind is so beautiful i cant even!

and more so, how you love yohan oppa to distance yourself so that you wont damage him, is beyond admirableee!

you two deserve eachother so muchh, i wish you two well in the future

ill always root for youu

thank you for understanding, somi

i wish you and wooseok oppa well too 💗