The new boy// HRVY - dolntwins

3.8

Poppy -

Peaking into Harvey's room I saw him laying on his stomach on his bed. Harvey's head was buried into the pillow and his school shirt had been ripped off.
"Harvey?"
Once hearing my voice, he rolled over into his back and looked at me with a soft face.
"Yea?"
"You're Mum said dinner is ready in 5. My parents just got here."
He nodded and the room fell silent.

"I'm sorry." I looked up from the floor and close the door behind me properly before walking closer to Harvey's bed. Why was he apologising.

"W-what?"
"I said I'm sorry..."
"W-why?"
"Why are you stuttering?"
"Harvey, why are you sorry?" I was so confused to why he was changing the conversation and why he said sorry in the first place.

Ever since we got home Harvey had been quiet and isolated himself. The most I've heard from him is when he was talking to his Mum and Ollie about his panic attacks. I wasn't in the room either. I think it's personal...I'm curious but I would never force Harvey to tell me something he didn't want to.

"Leading you on...Poppy I shouldn't have. I think you're gorgeous. You're so beautiful...I think you're amazing and funny and kind and honest and respectful and-" He sighs before thinking for a moment and lifting his head to look my in the eyes. Harvey attached his hand to mine and pulled me closer to him, sitting me on the bed.

"What i'm trying to say is...I really like you. I really do. And I know i say it all the time...but I wanna be with you." Staring at him in disbelief I continued to listen to him. Is this what he was thinking about? Is this why he hasn't been talking to me? Because he likes me? It sounded stupid...immature. I hated the fact Harvey could be either of those things but he was human. I had to respect that whatever Harvey was thinking about clearly meant a lot to him so maybe he really was being honest.

"Poppy?"

"Earth to Poppy?!"

"Did you just ignore everything I said?!"

I snapped back into reality and squeezed Harvey's hand which he had yet to remove from mine.
"I'm sorry...I zoned out."
Harvey stood up, scoffing.

"So I finally get the guts to tell you something which has been building up in my mind more and more for ages and you ignore me?!" His voice was serious, sharp. Harvey and I never really argued we always discussed things properly...if we needed to but he never got angry at me. He had never spoke to me like that before and I knew something must really be up. Because Harvey would never snap at me and he would never waste his time with someone who doesn't deserve it.

"I'm sorry! I wasn't ignoring you I just zoned out. I'm confused Harvey! The other day we were talking about how you couldn't be with me and now you're saying the opposite! You still haven't told me about what happened at school earlier and I want you to be able to trust me! I just wanna make sure you're okay!"My tone was merciful...I was telling him yet it sounded as if I was begging.
Begging him for answers so we could put and end to this back and forth stuff between us. I wanted to know how he really felt about me and if he was truly happy. Of course this wasn't all about Me and Harvey but if he did have the panic attack because he was thinking about us then I wanted to be able to calm him down and give him the answers he really needed. I wanted to be able to comfort him so if this was to happen again I could understand and actual be of some use to him in order to be helpful.

"I'm fine! Poppy i'm fine. I was wrong okay. Ignore what I said. Dinners probably ready by now."
Without another word Harvey left the room, slamming the door behind him. Hearing him stomp down the stairs caused more stress to spread through out me.

Maybe it was best for me to move out. Yes! I needed to go back home and I needed to focus on myself and my friends. Harvey was in a relationship and I needed to realise that. It wasn't fair for the either of us to be stressing out like over nothing. Harvey was with Debby. Debby isn't my friend anymore because she cheated on JJ when JJ was only ever good to her. She then cheated on Harvey with JJ. I however, may have the same friends as Harvey but if space was needed they'd understand. We could both go back to school tomorrow without a problem and take our separate ways. I nodded to myself before standing and leaving the room; Making my way downstairs to go eat the lovely food Nicky had made us and my family.

"Pops, You okay?"
"I'm fine. Thanks El."
Both Ollie and Elliot looked between me and Harvey before Harvey scoffed.
"Could you stop!"
"Harvey!"
"I knew this was a bad idea!"
Harvey stood up from the table, storming past me without even attempting to look at me...if anything he was avoiding me.
"Poppy darling, I'm sorry. I'll go get him."
"It's fine. Thank you Nicky."
I sat down next to my Mum and Ollie as Nicky got up to go talk to Harvey.

A couple moments later, shouting was heard from Harvey's room that was placed above us. The dining room we sat in was silent as everyone could hear every single word and movement above us.
Harvey's dad apologised to my parents as I tried to focus on what Harvey was upset about.
I couldn't help but stand up and chase after them as Harvey's voice grew louder and louder. I could practically feel his tears building up inside my own body. I raced up to Harvey's room and opened the door to find the both of them looking at me.

"We're having a private conversation! Not that you'd know anything about privacy."
"Harvey!"
I ignored Harvey's mother telling him off and continued to snap back at Harvey.
"It's not very private when everyone downstairs can hear you shouting at your Mum!"
Harvey fell silent not replying before looking away from me and up at his mother who was shorter than him however that didn't stop her from looking down on him with a face full of disgust and shame.

"Harvey, what the hell is going on with you?!"
Once again I questioned the boy desperately, hoping to get an answer that I would be able to help with.

"I told you Poppy. I love you. But you don't love me and that's fine."
More confusion fogged up my mind as I tried to focus on what Harvey was saying.
"Where has this come from?"
"Heartache."
I couldn't help but laugh at Harvey.
He's the heartbroken one? After everything he's put me through?!
I shook my head at him now feeling anger rising in my body.
"After everything You put me through? You're now telling me you love me while you are STILL with one of my friends?"
"Friends?!" This time it was Harvey's chance to laugh as he spat at me. "You both hate each other because of me but you're still gonna tell me she's your friend to make it okay? So I feel sorry for you?! Poppy, grow up! Face fucking reality! I love you and I've told you that don't then have a go at me for being honest with you!" I forgot Nicky was in the room and was reminded once again by her yelling at Harvey to stop having a go at me.

I sighed and walked closer to him, not letting his eyes slip from
mine.
"If you love me then start proving it and stop pushing me away!"
Before Harvey or his mum could say another word, I turned on my heel and made my way back out the room, running into the dining room.
I apologised to the rest of the family and asked Elliot if he could bring the remainder of my clothes to school tomorrow. He nodded and I left with my parents who shockingly didn't question or push me any further than I already have been.