You feel okay, Justine says
Yeah, I say
We use protection, he says
U stopped talking the pills before u travelled cause it was already affecting your health and when u got back we started using condom, he says
Expect one time,i say
One time, the lingerie day, he says
Yes, I say
That's like two days ago, pregnancy can't be that fairly detected, he says
What are you trying to say Justine, you my fucking husband, I say as I stand up from the bed
Am just,he Says but I interrupt
Enjoy, I say and walk out of the room.
oh my God am pregnant, oh my God am pregnant, I stopped using the pills when I travelled and so stupid and I got into so much sex, how am I going to explain to Justine, am so scared, I don't even want to know how far this pregnancy is, am fuckingdo scared, I say to myself as I sit on a swing.
Am so hungry and tired, so I picked a packed salad with cream and a whole Juice and a bunch of apple and I went straight to my room.
Justine isnt inside so am more excited as I eat and eat and watch a sad movie on my phone to take away my fears a little.
Justine open the door and I turn away from him concentrating on my movie.
You feeling okay he says and I nod
You need anything he says and I nod no
Look baby, am sorry,he says
Honey, baby, am sorry, I got scared you know it's so early in our marriage, he says
You were indirectly accusing me of infidelity, I say
I didn't, am sorry
Do u think I want a baby now you uhm,i say
I know, he says
Maybe we should have an abortion then, since we both not ready, I say
What? No way, everyone already knows, he says
We will call it a miscarriage, I say and he doesn't say anything as I covered myself with the duvet.
When I woke up Justine isn't in the room and I pick my phone and I see alot of missed calls from drake and am more worried and tense am so stupid not to protect myself and he also didn't try to protect him myself, what if he had STD am so stupid, I hit my head and the door opens and Justine comes in with a tray of food.
Hi, he says
Hi, I say
Let's forget yesterday please, we suppose to be happy about our baby and why do we care what time it comes, he is still ours, and am sorry I reacted that way, I just want everything to be perfect, he says
Yes I just want everything to be perfect too baby, I say
I love you, he says and kisses and feeds me the food he brought for me.
Am very thankful for the pregnancy news, not because of pregnant but not because I get to rest and I don't get to have an encounter with Mrs Scott.
Thanksgiving was nice, but it's time to go back home and am more excited I know we would be back soon for something else soon but before I left I got to show Mrs Scott has perfectly I care for Justine and my home well and the pregnancy news made her happy so I got a hug for that.
We arrived at the airport and we took an uber home, am so tired and my back hurts, I slept all through the fly back, I got irritated too and threw up twice before landing and also when we landed.
We got home and I went straight to my bed to rest my body as Justine makes something quick for me to eat and he cleans the house while I was sleeping after eating.
We had our bath together when I woke up and we are on the bed together
Am sorry you had to clean yourself, I say
Come on, it's okay, he says
Am so tired, I say
You feel so weak and Karen isn't this weak, maybe we should go to the doctor, he says
For what, I say
Don't get scared just for general check up and to prescribe medications to you, he says
No,am tired, I say
It's a most, he says
Okay fine, not today, I say
Am going to work tomorrow so i will have to have room for that this week, he says and I nod. He kisses me and we are both into the kiss so much and I try to pull his trouser down and he holds my hand
What, I say
The baby, he says
So, I say
What do u mean so, we don't want to hurt him, he says
We will go it carefully then, I say
No, we won't until we see the doctor, he says
But that's unfair, it's my right and you know, I say
Yes and it's also your right to keep your baby save, he says and kisses my forehead and I wiggle on the bed but he wraps his hands around me and I can feel the smile around his face.
I love you, he says
I love you too, I say
And my phone rings and he turns over to pick it
Who is drake,he says holding the ringing phone
Family friend back home, I say and I don't pick the call
It's fine you can pick it, he says
Yes, I switched off my phone quietly
He isn't calling again I already texted him, I lie
We should find a way to see your parents too, he says
I know, but am just not ready for the drama, I say
I will be there with you of course, he says
I want everyone to know we married and we have a baby, we can't wait until, it's born, he says
We will find a way, I say
That would be good, he says and kisses my forehead as we slept together.
