My First Time

SUMMER~

"It's weird how people flip when summer comes. But I don't because I won't see her. But I keep strong, because each day is a day closer to her."

Summer's here again, away from Audrey again. And being a 3rd year student with job training is hard. It's hard not to miss her. Kahit nagtatrabaho ako, I'm always thinking of her, and good thing I'm allowed to go to their house. Kahit sobrang nahihiya ako, nilalakasan ko na lang loob ko just to be with her. Kasi naman. I feel like I won't survive if I don't see her for so long. Waaaa! Mas gusto ko siya makasama ng mas matagal pa. Pero thankful nako dun. ^_^

8am to 5pm I'm busy working, if I get the chance naman to text her, kahit I miss you and I love you lang to keep her smiling. Tsaka baka pagpalit niya ko e. (Haha) But I know she really do love me. And when I get home I don't even have the strength to keep my eyes open. Gusto ko man siya makausap at makatext, hay but I'm really tired. Buti na lang she always understands me. Yes, I mean always. At eto pa ah, being so lucky, nasira yung phone ko. Yea I know, tough. Its good thing that I have extra phone, but it's kinda reject. Let's just say that I'd rather have the old one back than this. >.<

One day, my allergies are alive again. (Dafaq!) Sobrang ganda kasi ng panahon e, yung tipong it's really hot right now then all of a sudden it will rain. That's so shit.

I'm so irritated, so I decided to go home kaya nagpaalam na ko sa supervisor kong maganda. (Ay landi ko lang. HAHA) I texted Audrey to come in my apartment, para naman maging okay ako kahit papano. Good thing pumayag siya. (Nabigla ko ata siya. HAHA) kaya pumunta siya, buti naman at pinayagan siya. Nung nakita ko na siya I smiled, a big smile, yung ngiting umaabot hanggang tenga. I'm so happy na nakita at nakasama ko siya ulit. I hugged her tight and said that I really missed her. (Wait, nasan na yung mga allergies ko? Parang di ko na ata sila maramdaman. Haha) Kumain lang kami tapos nagpahinga, yun lang. (Joke, naniwala ka naman?:P) of course we kissed, mawawala ba yun? (HAHA) then I hugged her, then I hugged her, then I hugged her again and again. Di ko man kasi siya miss e. Di naman obvious diba?

Maghapon ko siyang kasama but still I'm already missing her. I want to be with her for so long. I want to be with her always.

Okay its 5:30pm, it's really sad that she needs to go home already. Sigh. I'm missing her already. Swear. Oh, there are raindrops in my eyes, sobrang lungkot lang ng nararamdaman ko. I hugged her para di niya makitang umiiyak ako. Pero naramdaman niya parin yung luha ko. Alam ko naman na ayaw din muna niyang umalis, pero kailangan. Umabot pa tuloy kami ng 6pm. (Hahaha)

Before she left, I kissed and hugged her again. Nakakainis, matagal na naman bago ko siya ulit makasama.

Missing her is like holding your breath, keeping it is hard. Too long you feel like dying. Summer was supposed to be fun, but without her it's just not worth it to smile. Iba parin kapag kasama mo talaga yung taong mahal mo. If I just closed my eyes, and when I opened them, nasa tabi ko na siya agad. Sigh. Mahilig din talaga ako mag-isip ng mga bagay na imposible. Kung kasama ko lang siya, I could smile, a big happy smile when I'm with her.

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Hmm. Okay naman kami ngayon, pero syempre di naman maiiwasan ang away. But still, we're so happy together, even if we're apart. She always says that "Sana tayo na talaga". Pag sinasabi niya yun, ang saya ko, kasi feeling ko ako na talaga gusto niyang makasama for the rest of her life. Mahal na mahal ko si Audrey and I will do my very best just to be worth it to her love. <3

May 22, 2012. Nakasama ko si Audrey kanina. Wew. It feels like I haven't seen her for months. Nagka- chance lang kami magkita dahil mag-eenroll siya ngayon. Pag dating niya kasama niya si Nikki and Ashley. Kiniss ko agad si Audrey and hugged her tight. (E namiss ko talaga siya e)

Nagpapatugtog ako dun sa laptop tapos habang nakatalikod ako, Audrey hugged me. Kahit nakatalikod ako parang sinasayaw ko siya. Hawak-hawak mga kamay niya.

Humarap na din ako para mas mayakap ko pa siya ng mahigpit.

Nag-mall sina Nikki at Ashley, naiwan kami dito nila Amber. After a while dumating na din si Ate Athena. Dun kami sa isang higaan tapos natulog lang kami. (Joke lang, nagkiss kami. HAHA. Tapos natulog)

And ayun nandito na naman kami sa malungkot na part, uuwi na siya. Ang bilis talaga ng oras kapag nag-eenjoy ka, kapag naghihintay ka naman sobrang bagal ng oras. Waah! Sabi nga nila "That's life!" (Oh. Is that even life? Sigh.)

She kissed me, yung matagal. (Sarap! Haha) bago siya umalis niyakap ko ulit siya at hinatid na namin ni Amber. Ang lungkot ulit, pero the end of the day, masaya pa din. Atleast nakasama ko na ulit si Audrey ko. ^___^

Habang nag-eedit ako, biglang tumawag si Audrey ko. Ang tagal ko daw kasing magreply e. Kaya humiga ako at sinagot yung call..

Calling Weakness....

Alex: Hello?

Audrey: Tagal!

(Matagal daw kahit sinagot ko naman agad. Haha)

Alex: Hindi man. Hehe

Audrey: Ano ginagawa mo bhie?

Alex: Nakahiga lang bhie. Ikaw?

Audrey: Nakahiga din (with matching tamad na boses)

(Biglang sumingit ang baliw na si Amber)

Amber: Ihh. Jusko no..

(Binigay ko yung fone kay Amber)

Audrey: Jusko no Amber.

Amber: Napano ka nananaman Audrey?

Amber: Ihh. Nakakasawa na.

Audrey: Mas nakakasawa ka.

(Kinuha ko bigla yung phone)

Audrey: Break na tayo.

Alex: Ano?! Break na tayo?!

Audrey: Hinde. HAHA

Alex: Akala ko bang hindi mo na uulitin yun? :/

Audrey: Hindi, kami yung nag-break ni Amber. Alam mo namang mahal kita. (HAHA)

Alex: Osige na nga. :''> (HAHA)

Audrey: Wait lang bhie masakit yung tiyan ko.

(Tignan mo 'to. Tsktsk. Haha)

Alex: Eww. XD

Audrey: Kapag kausap kasi kita sumasakit tiyan ko e. Haha

Alex: Kapal mo! Haha. Ligo na ko bhie. I love you so much!

Audrey: Sige bhie. I love you more! Bbye. (call ended)

Magkatext kami ni Audrey ko maghapon. Pero mas masaya sana kung magkasama na lang kami maghapon. Kapag sinasabi niyang "Hindi kita pagpapalit at iiwan. Mahal na mahal kita!" Nasasabi ko na lang sa sarili ko na sobrang swerte ko dahil may nagmamahal ng sobra sa akin. Kapag nag'iloveyou naman sa isa't-isa, its just like always the first time we say I love you to each other. I know Audrey loves me so much, and she will never ever leave me. At ganun din ako sa kanya. ^////^

May sinabi siya ngayon na sobrang nagustuhan ko, kasi saktong sakto siya sa title na ginawa ko. (Hehe) "Lahat ng first time ko, sayo ko na-experienced. At sure ako na madame pa ko ma-eexperience na bago kasama ka." O diba? Madami kasi kaming first time experiences with each other. ^////^ Sana makasama ko na siya ulit ng mas matagal pa, para mas masaya.

I will never get tired of loving the most important person in my life. And that's Audrey. <3