Ode to Dusk

Chapter 6

After the wolf incident things died down. I didn't hear the voice, I didn't see things in the shadows, I was fine. My sanity felt like it was slowly returning to me. I felt calm for the first time, which is odd because I just went through a wolf attack.

I thought that maybe that was only a phase. Because I moved my mind strayed a bit. I think I was just having a crisis in my life. Because now I feel fine. I've even been spending time with my family a lot more, which is pretty great. I know they were worried at first, but everything is going back to normal.

I tried a few times, to manipulate light. It didn't work any time I tried. So I guess that gives me even more proof that it was only a weird phase. It's a huge relief, I'm just glad all of the craziness is over. At around this time the voice work of be saying something like it's far from over.

I was sitting on the couch, watching some kid show with my siblings. It was some kid show that I didn't really find entertaining. I guess it's for simpler minds. I can see why kids enjoy it, with all the bright flashy colors. It keeps kids entertained.

I decided I had enough, I got up out of the couch.

"I'm going out for some fresh air." I announced, walking away.

"Okay! But don't go in the woods!" Mom called after me. She worries too much for sure. I'll be careful, especially after last time.

I walked outside, breathing in the air, it was warm and crisp. Definitely great quality. I found out that out here the air was amazing quality, and so healthy. Many asthmatics move here more that exact reason actually.

I walked to the backyard, waiting for something to happen as I do. Of course, nothing does happen. I am still very attentive, but who could blame me? I mean when you go through something like that it really shakes you up. It's a lot for a person to deal with for sure.

I sat on the bench, the same bench as last time. I wasn't traumatized or anything. That was the least scary thing that has happened lately. Besides life is way too short to be scared all the time. This bench is a peaceful place, so I enjoy it.

I try not to look into the forest. But it's hard to avert my eyes. My subconscious is making my eyes move in that direction. I close my eyes, taking in a breath. I lean back in the bench, taking in the warm air. I opened my eyes, looking into the forest.

I saw some movement, should I go check it out? Why can't I just stay away from the paranormal?! I keep trying to get myself in trouble. I don't know when to quit. But I can't resist it, I want to know more. I have to know more.

I'm the type of person that yearns for more in life. I want adventure, I want to know that I mean something. I want to be more than what I am. But then against does every teenager, we all want to be special, to be the exception.

I got up, and slowly made my way to the edge of the forest. Being very careful, I poked my head through the trees. I looked around, seeing nothing. What was I thinking? That I would see something? I shook my head, signing. I guess I better get inside then.

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It's late now. I spent the rest of the day in my room, doing teenage things. I shot Leila a few texts, which earned me no response. She has been ignoring me lately, I wonder why. I miss her so much. But I guess she doesn't want anything to do with me.

I was currently on the window bench, just staring at the night sky. It was beautiful, as always. The stars that I shifted a while ago where no longer in those positions. Even more proof that I'm crazy I guess.

I wonder what came over me those few weeks. I'm glad that it's all behind me though, I felt like I was going insane. My parents noticed that too, but they see that I'm better now.