memory {boyxboy}

12; Final Goodbye

*Last Chapter*

Jaime's POV

Two funerals. Less than a year.

I can't forgive myself for this one, I caused this.

I guess I took my anger too far.

Two of my best friends...dead.

***A Month Ago***

"Yeah yeah yeah, ok bye idiot" I laughed into the phone hanging up.

"Kellin would you be happy if I would just....go? I'm not needed here, and I don't know if I can be here a day longer. I know this was your dream school, but I can't do this. I know you deserve better, I just.... wanted you safe, a-and I'm so sorry." I heard from his room.
He wouldn't.... he can't.

Well I did bang his head in the toilet multiple times, but still.
I felt like Kellin and Vic at the moment,

Me with anger issues,

And Vic crying and scared. I started pacing around the room then I left, I can't be in the same room as him. I left for a couple hours at the bar before coming back. I hesitantly walked into his room, feeling a pulse just to check if he's alive. I sighed in relief knowing he's ok.

I went to bed straight after that.

Tomorrow was going to be a long day.

I woke up just in time for breakfast with my Tony, Mike, Justin, Jack, Gabe and Nick.

"Oh my god, it's about time" Justin grinned, and I rolled my eyes.

"The usual, guys?" The waitor came and we all nodded. My mind wondered off to Vic.

I wonder if he's awake? I checked the time on my phone. Five minutes late, just like the usual. We all talked and laughed some more until I had a feeling in my stomach, I felt sick. Fuck, I forgot to take my medications.

"Guys hold up for a second" I scooted from my seat walking fast to the dorm. If I don't take it I could pass out any second. The second I stepped back into the college building, I saw Vic coming out of the dorm.

"Vic" I whispered, but it didn't seem like he heard me.

"Vic" I said a little louder, he started walking away, at a faster rate. I decided to go after him so I grabbed his wrist, turning him around violently. He seemed so shaken and tears were spilling from his eyes.

"Open your eyes" I said sternly, and he did. I looked deeply into eyes as constellations of tears covered his eyelashes. I shook that image out of my head.

Everytime I see him, it reminded me of what he did to Kellin, and my hatred for him came back.

"Yesterday, you said something" I said and he looked confused. He didn't bother answering me.

"I said," I squeezed his wrist causing him to whimper in pain.
My eyes slowly traveled down to his wrist. It was that same look Kellin gave me when I accidentally grabbed his wrist instead of his hand. Keyword; Accidentally.

He tried fighting his arm away but I had a good grip on it. He stopped struggling and and yanked down his sleeves.

Old

New

Long

Short

Deep

You name it...

My eyes went wide,

"Vic...."

"No. I'm sorry, I didn't mean to. Please don't hurt me" He closed his eyes, saying all at once.

He reminded me of so much like Kellin. I remember hugging Kellin, telling him that everything would be ok. That image was so clear and vivid that my actions took over. I hugged him tightly mentally saying 'things will be ok' and he seems surprised,

"What have I done, I'm so so-" I said, with guilt. Before I can even finish, we stared at each other for a couple seconds before he pushed me, then ran back into the dorm.

"Vic wait!" I chased him into the dorm. I ran inside and I heard his room door close. I yelled and banged on the door. I tried kicking the lock but it wouldn't budge. I tried kicking it down; nothing. I finally got the door to break, but it was all so quick.

He's gone... And that's when I passed out

****present****

That's was all I remember...

Both Kellin and Vic's tombstone were side by side.

I was the only left and I just stayed there crying.

"I'm so sorry..." it was mostly for Vic.

Kellin Bostwick Quinn

April 24th, 1986-July 6th, 2014
Vic Fuentes

Feburary 10th 1983-Feburary 18, 2015

Is this like a cycle?

First Kellin....Then Vic.... Who's next?

Me?

***Flash Back***

"Idiots come on, get in the fucking picture," Mike yelled. I put the camera time on 5 seconds before running to the crowd.

"Say dick face on the count of three" Kellin joked,

"1" Kellin was first...

"2" Then Vic...

"3" After that, I was,

"DICK FACE" we all said in union, then laughed. It was the whole crew. Vic, Kellin, Mike, Tay, Jenna, Alex, Jack, the other Jack, Rian, Zack, Nick, Tony, Gabe, Justin... and then me.

"Alright alright" Vic held Kellin's hand. I have to admit, I was jealous but I let it slide.

"Ok, I'll go print this picture" Mike took te camera,

"MAKE AN EXTRA COPY" Vic yelled,

"Why?"

"We need this memory of us when we're in college. You know, it's 48 hours on flight." Vic said, and I nodded. Going to college was our dream but we had our downs, so did they.

We were all in our last year in high school, an we basically can't wait to get out of there.

"Friends forever right?" I said,

"Hell yeah" Jenna said, a bit intoxicated.

***End***

I smiled at that memory. I can't believe this is so real.

I remember saying "friends forever" that day. I felt like a monster. I laid my rose in front of Vic's tombstone, and another in front of Kellin's.

All those shit I caused Vic.... the pressure I put on him for Kellin's death. I can't ever forgive myself.
People say you were just a memory...

But I believe...you're still alive, just not exactly with me.

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