memory {boyxboy}

7; accidental love

June 4th (continuous)

Status: No improvement,

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'Hey Vic,

I don't know what your fucking problem is. Yeah I touched him and got frisky a bit but we didn't do shit, you know why? Because he loves you. But he's always fucking crying thinking that you might not love him because all you do is yell at him. I knew about him all his self harm and stuff but I kept it a secret because he told me to. He thought you'll be disgusted in him, and I tried my hardest to get him out of it-to stop. I tried to make him happy instead of yelling all the damn time, I tried comforting him when he's crying, I tried telling him to talk to you instead of making you yell at him, but no. And it wasn't me who brought him here, you did. YOU broke his heart, and did you really love him? Guess not, but guess what? I loved him, always did and always have. I hope you're happy'

JAIME POV -sneak peak-

I know I lied about Kellin coming onto me but I wanted them to brake up. It was just heart breaking to see Kellin like this everyday.

I know what you're thinking, 'aren't you with Tay?' no.

We never were together and she knows that. She know I love Kellin...

I think I could possibly be a better boyfriend for Kellin but I couldn't forgive myself. You're also thinking 'Jaime, you did this. You told Vic, Vic got mad and now Kellin is in the hospital'

No. Vic just now find out about this, I can't say much about what happen because I don't know the details but Kellin did something really bad. Vic thinks it's about cheating but he doesn't know Kellin like I do. I comfort him four sometimes five days out of the week sometimes staying the night at his place, in seperate bedrooms of course.

VIC POV

I stared at letter in shock, I wasn't expecting that...

But everything he said was so true, I knew nothing about him, but I don't yell at him for everything, right? All I know now is that I drove him to the hosptial, I almost made him die... How the hell am I going to live with that? I threw the note and headed for the car.

I'm pretty sure it's not safe to drive where you could barely see, but did I care? Nope. I could die right now, and I would still believed that I deserve it.

I rested my head onto the starring wheel, squeezing my eyes shut, but all I saw was Kellin.

"Don't go" I whimpered, but he started to fade, but he came back.

'You expect me to forgive you?" his voice was harsh and distant, "You expect me to love you back after all the shit you put me through?'

"K-kellin, i did-"

''I didn't mean it'' he mocked my voice, "you never mean it Vic, you never do. But I don't understand, if you don't mean it why say it?'

"I don't know" I whispered.

'Of course you don't know, and that's fucking pathetic Vic. You see, now that I'm here trying to battle for my life, you take all this time to say sorry? Where the hell is sorry going to get me?'

"What else am I suppose to do? There's not much I can do!" I yelled with tears rushing from my eyes,

'You know what I want you to do? I what you to get out my fucking life, I regretted the day I met you. You don't know how much pain I've been through. I've learn my mistake and I found someone else better than you anyways'

"What are you talking about?"

'You know all those fucking days where you would just yell constantly, and then there was that ONE person who would take care of me? Yeah, I think you know who....'

He can't be serious. Replacing me for Jaime?

"You mean Jaime?" Then Kellin started fading. I started looking around.

Does he really want me out of his life? Does this mean he hates me? Is he really replacing me for Jaime? There was a feeling in my stomach, and my mind and action were telling me two different things. My actions were louder than the voices in my head, basically controlling my entire body. I couldn't stop what I was doing, but I kept going and going. That was until I took the wrong turn, and the wheels got all crazy, and the last thing I heard was, "call 911!"

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