memory {boyxboy}

6; British affair

June 4

Status: Still recovering, but not much.

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I don't know what's wrong with me...

I'm having that same dream but it look so surreal. I would wake up screaming, in tears, and sweating like I ran a marathon.

I call the hospital every now and then but they say the same thing over and over again, 'He's slightly improving'

"Fuck" I whimpered, laying back to bed,

"Kellin please wake up" I muttered. I stayed staring at the ceiling for what it seems like hours but it was only a couple minutes. I dragged myself out of bed, wall lazily walking downstairs. I pictures Kellin in the kitchen making my favorite breakfast ever, while singing.

I smiled at that memory.

My eyes came to focus and notice he wasn't there to brighten day, instead unclean dishes filled the sink and the apartment filled with darkness and silence. Sometimes silence is violent, and it burns my skin every second my here.

I need a drink.

^*^*^*^*

"Just for the night babe" his think British accent slurred in my ear, and I giggled,

"No no"

"I can make you feel so good" he said in a low, seductively voice. He took my hand and forced my lips on his and I kissed back hungrily. He trailed down,kissing my neck my neck finding my soft spot,

"M-More...More K-Kellin" I moaned out, and his head shot right up,

"Who the bloody 'ell is Kellin?"

"Kellin" I whined, "keep going" I giggled. I dropped the glass bottle on the floor, missing the table. I dance as his hands we wrapped around my waist. I didn't bother opening my eyes, all I did was imagine.

All of a sudden, I felt a sharp pain on my cheek,

"Ow...that hurt" I rubbed my cheek, opening my eyes.

"Are you being naughty?"

"Of course not?" I couldn't process right. My eyes were seeing something but my mouth said another, I knew this wasn't Kellin.

"I think you need a punishment" he whispered, huskily.

^*^*^*^*

I woke up by someone pacing in my room shouting out words.

"Who the fuck are you?" I said,

"Who the 'eff are you?"

"I asked yo-" I realized we were both naked, "please tell me we didn't" I pleaded, as I felt tears brimmed my eyes.

"Calm down love, we didn't have sex. We were about to but you passed out then you started screaming and shit and you woke me up and... I realized I almost cheated on my girlfriend" he said and I relaxed. He scurried putting his underwear and and pants on, then his shirt.

"Hannah is going to fucking shoot my ass" he grabbed his phone and his wallet, "by the way I'm Oliver" he winked.

"I'm V-Vic?" I stuttered.

After he left I feel like I was in Kellins place right now. I was so scared but happy. I just kept crying and crying. I couldn't exactly call this cheating since we aren't together anymore, thanks to me. I walked to the bathroom just starring at my reflection, my eyes were puffy and I felt like a jack ass right now. I didn't have sex but I almost did. I imagined Kellin appearing and wrapping his arms around my torso, softly kissing my collarbone.

If only...

I slid eveything on the bathroom counter onto the floor creating a mess.

I went to go up on some clothes before visiting Kellin again.

"Mr. Fuentes" said the nurse at the desk,

"Um yes? I'm just here for K-"

"I know, this is a note from a guy named Jaime Pr-" she had a hard time saying his name.

"Preciado?"

"I think so" she smiled, handing me the note an I hesitantly took it.

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