Not What I Thought

Part 5

*3rd person Dan*

Dan woke up to a text from Phil.

"Can we talk tomorrow?"

Phil had texted him last night when he had been drinking. Dan had finally passed out after using a pay phone to call Phil. His time had run out so it made him hang up. He should've used his phone but he decided to feel like a part of society and use a pay phone.

When Dan finally replied, he took 20 minutes because he was trying to get all of his thoughts under control. He had wanted to throw his phone through Phil's window.

He typed a quick response.

"Yeah.. Sure.. Whatever.."

Phil was probably asleep, so Dan wandered around his house for a few hours, considering it was only 5:20 in the morning. "I was drinking last night.. Why am I up so early?"

Dan didn't drink often so when he did he usually got really hung over and ditched school. He knew he wouldn't be able to anymore because if he ditched and his parents didn't call to tell the school, he'd be absent and the old hag would have to watch him.

"Maybe that would be better for Phil. When I called him it sounded like he had been crying." Dan said, "Could it have been my fault?" His voice sounded hoarse from all the screaming he had done last night. He had beaten up his pillow to take out his anger.

His little brother had walked in and he threw the pillow at him, missing him and hitting a poster on his wall.

Adrian was still up. "Probably texting his girlfriend." Dan said quietly. He walked into his brothers room and looked at him with sad eyes. Adrian was on the phone with someone. When he saw the look on his older brothers face he said bye and hung up. "Are you okay Dan?" Adrian said. He had bags under his eyes from staying up so late in the morning.

Dan shook his head, trying hard to fight back tears. "Why the hell not? Did someone mess with you?" Adrian said, getting protective of his older brother. Dan walked in and closed the door. He sat on the floor next to Adrian's small bed and started to cry.

Adrian whispered assuring words to him, trying to calm him down. When Dan had cried himself out and controlled his breathing Adrian started questioning him. "What's wrong?" "Why were you crying so hard?" "Did someone say something rude to you?" "Do I need to beat someone up?"

Dan laughed silently, "No you don't have to beat anyone up. It's just.. There's this guy.. I've liked him for a really long time but he doesn't like me back.." Dan admitted.

"So? You get rejected all the time. What makes this guy any different?" Adrian pressed.

"This is the guy that I've liked since year 6. And I admitted to him that I liked him.. After kissing him in an abandoned classroom.." Dan told his little brother.

Adrian sat there with his mouth hung wide open. "YOU KISSED HIM?!" He screamed.

"Shhhhh" Dan put his hand over Adrian's mouth, "Don't yell!" He whisper-yelled.

Adrian giggled at his brother. "What was going through your brain when you kissed him?" Adrian questioned.

"Nothing. He was yelling at me and when I tried walking away he grabbed my wrist, I yanked really hard to get him to let go and we fell and then he kissed me.."

Adrian cut Dan off, "I thought you said you kissed him?"

"Well if you would be patient." Dan scolded his younger brother.

"Sorry." Adrian said.

"Anyways.. So he kissed me and then he pulled away, trying to apologize, he helped me stand up and he was against a wall and I was standing in front of him and I kissed him and then the bell rang and we had to go to class. Then he asked me to come over so we could study but it was really so we could talk but he ended up crying, I tried to comfort him and he literally pushed me away." Dan said, "I murdered a lamp." He added.

Adrian stifled a laugh. "You murdered a lamp? How'd you manage that one?" Adrian said.

"Well when he pushed me, my back was towards his night stand and then I knocked over a lamp and his clock. I'm pretty sure the clock's okay though." Dan said, reassuringly.

"So what happened after he pushed you?"

"Well.. I walked down stairs to the door and then I left and got drunk. I called him to apologize but he sounded like he had been crying and I don't remember everything that happened. But the point is.. I'm depressed as hell now."

"Well why are you up this early if you were drunk?" Adrian asked.

"That's a good question. And I don't have a good answer so..." Dan trailed off. "Why am I up this early?"

"Maybe you should eat some food and then shower and get ready to look even better than ever to show him what he lost." Adrian suggested.

"That's the thing.. If he were to tell me he loved me and wanted to go out with me I would say yes." Dan said shamefully.

"Oh.." Was all Adrian could manage to say.

"Yeah.. What should I do Adrian? I don't wanna keep getting hurt and he wants to talk again. He probably wants me to pay for the lamp I murdered." Dan laid his head down on his little brother's bed. "I think I'm gonna go take a shower and think things through."

"Alright. See ya later Dan." Adrian said.

Dan walked out of his brother's room and into the bathroom. He put both hand on the sink and looked into the mirror.

Ew.. I have hobbit hair.. Well a shower and a straightener attack should do the trick.

Dan undressed and turned on the water. He made sure it was hot, then stepped into the steamy embrace of the shower.