𝓉𝒽𝒶𝓉 𝓈𝓊𝓂𝓂𝑒𝓇 ~ 𝒷𝑒𝓃𝒿𝑒𝓎

chapter 3// butterflies

i open my eyes to the bright light from my blinds was shining in my eyes. i squint and rub my eyes sitting up. i open my eyes and see benji  sitting up beside me on his phone. he looks back at me "good morning sleepy face" he says as he ruffles my hair. i got that feeling of butterflies in my stomach i had only gotten a few times in my life but lately it's been happening more. "good m-morning" was all i could spit out. i grab my phone which was beside me. i see a notification from snapchat dated about an hour ago.  it was from benji. i open it and see it's a picture of me sleeping. i turn to him as he was staring at his phone. "why'd you take a picture of me sleeping?" i ask him as he turns to me. "ion know i just thought you were cute i guess" benji answered my question. if only he knew how much those words meant coming from him. "oh ok uh thanks"

i went on my phone until i got a text from benji. i opened the notification.

benjamin😡🔪
do you wanna go eat somewhere?
jorge😡🔪
sure but you could have just asked me in person. i'm literally right beside you
benjamin 😡🔪
i know but i just wanted to text instead. so where do you wanna go?
jorge😡🔪
idk wherever you want to i guess
benjamin 😡🔪
you wanna just go to starbucks than?
jorge😡🔪
sure
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i look beside me to him "i'm gonna get dressed now kay" he said getting up. he went to his suitcase and got out a pare  of jeans and a purple hoodie. he went to the bathroom and when i heard the door close i got up and went to my closet. i grabed a pink tee shirt and black jean shorts. i put on my clothes and went to sit on my bed. i was bored and decided i'd change benjis contact name, i changed it to 'benjamin♥️'. i kinda felt bad for changing it since we both had it matching since freshmen year. i heard a knock on the door "come in" i shouted loud enough for benji to hear. benji opened the door and walked in. he put his "pyjamas" in his suitcase and turned back to me "you ready to go?" i nodded and got up from my bed and walk behind benji down the stairs. we put our shoes on and walk out the door. we start walking down the sidewalk. my thoughts started up again

ok, what if you did like him? what would happen? you'll be heartbroken, he'll hate you, you'll lose your best friend. fuck. you do. you fucking like him. great.

still in my daze "jorge" "JORGE" i snapped out of it "mmm?" i replied to benji "you good?" i'm not exactly "uh yeah. everything's fine" now you're lying to him. this is ruining everything.

we made it to the coffee shop and walk in. we both order iced coffee and sit down at one of the tables. benji talked about his trip but i stayed silent. once we were finished our drinks benji thought it would be fun to go to the park. as we were walking i got cold. i rubbed my shoulders hoping to warm myself. benji noticed. he took his hoodie off and handed it to me. i look at him with a puzzled look "you're cold" he said. "ok?" "wear my hoodie" he said holding it closer to me "but what if you get cold" "jorge, i'll be fine. just wear it" "but-" "please" he said cutting me off. "but-" "if you don't take it i'll put it on you" he said cutting me off again "no you wouldn't" he gave me the look of "try me". i grabbed the hoodie and put it over my head. my sleeves hung over my hands, the hem down to my mid thigh. i looked ridiculous but i was warm, and wearing benji's hoodie. at this moment i wished he was my boyfriend more than ever. he was so sweet to me and having him as a boyfriend would make it even better. having him as my boyfriend we could do all the things we do now and more. i could kiss his soft, rosey lips. he would kiss me back. and we could stay up till late at night talking and telling each other we love each other. that will never be possible i sighed. we made it to the park. we went to the swings and sat down, swinging lightly. "so, what'd you do this summer?" benji asked my. i swung my leg back and forth.
"hmm nothing really. uh i stayed home a lot"
"did you hang out with syd?"
"yeah. i went to his house a couple times. we came here too"
"that's good. i wish i had friends with me when i was traveling. it's was pretty boring without anyone"
"it was boring without you here. you're like glue. you keep everything together
"thanks" he chuckled

we talked a little more. it got to 3:00. i got a call from my mom

"jorge, benjis mom is going to pick him up in an hour. it's time to head back"
"kay ma. i'll be home soon"
"okay, love you mijo"
"love you too"

i hung up the phone. "so?" benji asked "we have to go home. you're mom's gonna pick you up in an hour" he nodded his head and we started walking.

once we made it home benji got the few things he left around my room and put them in his bag. his mom showed up only a couple minutes later.

"kay bye jorge. see you tomorrow" he said as he gave me a one armed hug, his other hand had his bag
"bye benjamin. see you soon"
he left. i went back to my room and sat back on my bed. i realized i still had his hoodie "fuck" i grabbed my phone

jorge 😡🔪
you left your hoodie
benjamin ♥️
i'll get it when i come to your house tomorrow
jorge 😡🔪
ok
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i love him. what will i do?