What Aston Merrygold Did..

part 34

-NORMAL POV-

i didn't want to talk to anyone, i didn't want anyone to touch me, i wanted to be alone. my body was burning from all the scrubbing and it ached from the way he touched me. I still felt dirty, i still felt like he was touching me. His hands everywhere i didn't want them to be. My throat still killed, it was on fire and it even hurt to swallow. I was broken and i didn't know what to do about it. Would anyone believe me? I was terrified but i couldn't stay like forever right?

-ASTONS POV-

i watched her rock back and forth. It was horrible. What could of happened to her? everytime i went near her she told me not to touch her, her voice sounded dry and emotionless. Every now and then tears would fall from her eyes. it broke my heart seeing her like this. I asked if she wanted anything but she didn''t respond. All i wanted to was hug her and tell her everything was going to be fine but she wouldn't let me. She was still wrapped in the towel and she wasn't making any effort to get dressed. I just have to wait until she's ready.

-two weeks later-

Talia hardly said anything to me anymore, she still didn't let me touch her, even if it was just a hug goodbye. It really broke my heart and our relationship was going so downhill. She didn't even attempt to make a conversation with me. Had she fallen out of love with me?

-NORMAL POV-

i felt terrible doing this to Aston but i couldn't help myself, i just felt so dirty all the time, no matter how many times i showered. I wasn't worthy to love him, i basically cheated on him. I blamed all this on myself. I was depressed and no one even knew. Aston still waited around, wanting me to tell him what was wrong. I just couldn't bring myself to do it. I dont think this relationship is going to last much longer.

Aston entered the room. "You alright?" he softly smiled. I just nodded avoiding eye contact with him. He sat next to me on the bed while i sat there picking off my nail varnish. "Dont - " I started. "I know, touch you, i wont." Aston sighed. That's the only thing that came out of my mouth. I couldn't help it, it was automatic now. Aston got up again and walked out the room. I heard him go downstairs which made my muscles relax knowing he was far away. I hated myself for feeling like this, i loved Aston, I still do but i'm just so scared. I know 100% Aston would never hurt me but my mind won't let me no matter how much i fought. I was tired from fighting myself all the time. Maybe it was time to telll him?

-ASTONS POV-

i went downstairs to the phone. I had enough of my girlfriend avoiding me and i had to do something about it. I rang Danielle. "Hello?" Danielle answered. I fillied her in on all the details from the past two weeks but she had no idea about it. "Are you sure?" I answered. "Yeah, i would've said her mood swings but she finished her period two days before this all started i think and they've never been this bad." Danielle explained. "I know, i don't know what to do" I said while my voice broke. I could feel the tears coming. "Oh Ast, I wish i could help. She hasnt text or called me for ages. When i try she just ignores it. Maybe you could take her up to her mums for a bit?" Danielle suggested. "Yeah, maybe. Thanks danielle." I said while letting her get back to Mason who was crying in the background.

After ending the phone call with Danielle, I went back upstairs. "Babe?" I asked getting her attention. "Do you wanna go to your mums for the weekend?" I asked. "No." Talia answered blunty. "It might make you feel better though baby." I said. "It won't, my mum will know somethings wrong and will make me tell her. I dont want to tell anyone." Talia broke down. "Ok baby, shh dont cry, i wish you would let me hug you, it would make everything better if you just told me." I said walking closer to her. She didn't flinch. I walked closer until I was standing at her feet. She hadn't told me to move yet. "Baby?" I asked. "I wish i could tell you but you'll hate me" Her voice croaked. I bent down to her level and tried to get her attention. "I could never hate you, please tell me." I soothingly said. As the words left my lips she collasped into my arms.

She felt so hard and cold. Not the way she normally did. I hadn't touched her in two weeks and now it was so different. Was she about to tell me what was wrong?