bts imagines

one sided love [p.jm]

jimin's pov

the air was clear, crisp, the most refreshing i've ever breathed in a while. the sound of rustling leaves filled the area. chirping birds passed by every now and then, each one singing a melody even more beautiful than the one before.

i always come to the park to clear my mind. to toggle through all the thoughts that have spent most of their time trapped in my racing mind. my head was lowered towards my feet. my hands were stuffed in my pocket. my jet black hair clouded over my eyes, but not to the point where i couldn't see. i was walking alongside the river that wrapped around the entire park, the fallen leaves of the trees crunching beneath my feet.

y/n. why can't i grow the fucking balls to tell you how i feel? i've liked my best friend ever since i can remember, but i treasure our friendship more than anything else. losing it would probably be the worst thing to ever happen to me, so i distract myself from my feelings towards her as frequently as i can.

but she's been getting closer and closer with taehyung lately. it has always been us three, no one else. we did everything together, we've been best friends for as long as i can remember. but recently, she's been ditching me and her's hangouts, saying that taehyung needed her for an emergency or something. they've just been spending time alone for almost a month now, and it's suffocating me. i feel like a burden to them. us three didn't hang out as a group for what seems like years.

but i can't straight up tell them that. they'd think i'm joking around, and won't take me seriously. they'll probably even deny spending time alone together.

but why, just why, did my mind decide that the person i'd like is y/n? i don't blame myself, though. she's everything i could ever ask for in a girlfriend, but i don't know if she reciprocates those feelings towards me.

"jimin! hey, jimin!"

my thoughts were violently interrupted due to the sound of an all too familiar voice calling out my name from behind me.
i stopped walking and turned around. there was y/n, running towards me with the biggest grin on your face, as she dragged taehyung behind her.
i ignored their intertwined hands and completely turned around to face them, a fake smile on my face.

"thank god i found you here." y/n exclaimed. y/n and tae now both stood in front of me, y/n lightly grasping his shoulder.
"it's been a while, chim." tae raised his fist indicating a bro fist. i forcefully returned the gesture.
"i'm sorry we both haven't been hanging ou with you lately. life's been crazy." y/n leaned closer to taehyung.

my body was shutting down even more by the second at the sight of the both of them standing so close to each other.
"jimin? you haven't said a word." tae snapped a finger in front of my face.
i forced a chuckle out of my tightening throat. "don't worry about me. is there something you two want to tell me?" i shoved my hands into my pockets.

y/n and taehyung looked at each other, sharing a glance, before returning to me.
"well, yeah actually."
they both lightly chuckled, before making direct eye contact with me.

i knew exactly what they were going to tell me.

"me and tae decided to try working out together, and so far everything has been amazing." y/n leaned even further into him, who was holding her waist from the side.
those words were all it took for my entire world to break down.
i gulped down the tears that were threatening to begin falling down.
"i'm happy for you two. i really am. but i think i have to go, my mom needs me home."

"oh? okay, well, text me when you get home okay?" y/n spoke, her voice gentle.
i nodded, already beginning to turn around to walk away.
"text me too!" tae slowly fading shouted from behind me.
i began walking out of the park, fast. my mission to not cry failed miserably, tears were streaming down my cheeks mercilessly.

i am so weak. so naive. what makes me think that y/n would ever like someone like me? what makes me think that i would ever be that someone who would wake up next to her, give her morning kisses, remind her how much i love everyday, hug her from the back when she's cooking breakfast?

i truly wish her and taehyung's relationship remain as healthy as it possibly can.

maybe y/n wasn't the one for me after all.