Broken Dreams #1 : A Light To My Darkest Days

Chapter 1

Chapter 1

Issues

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Song: Issues // Julia Michaels

It was 3:45 AM in the early morning when I woke up with a throbbing pain in my head.

Maybe, it's because I arrived at my apartment at midnight. Well, I need to face every struggle in my life because this is the best...for me.

Humugot ako ng isang malalim na buntong-hininga at inayos ang higaan ko. Tinali ko ang buhok ko sa isang messy bun at sinimulang gawin ang mga early morning routines ko.

Before I started doing my household chores, I made my coffee first to induce my drowsiness. Fuck! I will never take any hard liquor wver again!

Because a cup of coffee is not enough to fulfill me, I took several slices of bread in the refrigerator. Mabuti na lang, hindi paspoiled.

It's like the bread and pastries inside the refrigerator is stocked, disregared for some unknowm reason, just like the day I rented the apartment. Along came my aloof roommate.

Tumingin ako sa pintuan ng kanyang kuwarto, marahan itong nakaawang at medyo dinig ko ang hilik niya.

Marahil ay pagod ang roommate ko. Tipid kong nginitian ang pintuan ng kuwarto niya, kung may nakakakita sa akin, desidido ako na tatawagin niya akong tanga. So weird!

Binalingan ko ang baso na kasalukuyan kong hinuhugasan. Nang matapos ko ang aking trabaho sa kusina, naglakad ako patungo sa sala dahil napagisipan kong manood muna ng telebisyon.

I started to change the channel until my eyes caught off guard the documentarist who is reporting briefly about the trending issues in the Philippines.

"Next one, teenage pregnancy..."

"Teenage pregnancy is one of the abundant issues inside the country. Mostly, women from 18 and below experience pre-marital sex that leads to HIV/AIDS and pregnancy."

"Approximately, 3 out of 5 young girls are reported with regards to sexual intercourse and results to pregnancy, this is accoridng to our survey. This problem should be stopped because most of the teenagers doesn't have enough knowledge with regards to damily planning. In order to prevent these kinds of unforeseen circumstances, we should be more conscious and be wiser."

Marahan kong nahawak ang puson ko. I will never trade my virginity to someone I don't know. As if laying in the bed and spreading my legs is the easiest part. There's no way that it will happen!

Patuloy lang ako nanood sa dokyumentaryo at pinakinggan ang mga kuwento ng mga naging biktima ng teenage pregnancy.

Different stories. Different emotions. Different perspectives. There were so many stories that I can reflect. Ito siguro yung dahilan kung bakit maaga akong nagigising. During weekends, I spend the rest of my morning watching documentaries.

However, let's go back to the topic. Hindi ko isusuko ang kabataan sa isang estranghero o 'di kaya sa isang lalaki na nakilala ko kamakailan lang.

Ni hindi nga nila kayang panagutan ang kanilang mga sariling problema, ang bata pa kaya.

Nowadays, many young women abort their children. Hindi ba sila nagsisisi? Wala ba silang puso? How can they do something like that?

For me, aborting a child is one of the greatest sins of all. The child is the epitome of miracle. An angel from heaven, ika nga nila.