Random Thoughts of Mine

Channel

I don't know what to write, where to start and how will I manage this?

This is new for me, all i do is teach and share my knowledge to my students. But sometimes I need a channel where I can express myself and share my thoughts. It is bombarding to receive stress from others and you don't have someone to talk to about your own. There's a lot of thoughts coming, I don't how can I handle it, I don't know where to end these thoughts.

I don't know why I'm doing this pero bakit ba? Anong masama? All I want is to express my anxieties cause if not, what will happen to me? I don't need someone to read this and be my fan. I don't have those intentions. I just want someone who will listen to my random thoughts, someone who I can share my problems. But I think I will not find someone though, we are all busy with our own problems and anxieties so why need to add someone to think of. 

Maybe this is our fate, to be alone and to carry all the burden on our own. Cause in the end of the day we don't need anyone but our own to understand our struggle. Because all I know is Self-care is not selfish but it is a sign of being courageous of what lies in our future. 

So what, if you only have yourself?

You don't need someone to heal yourself, you just need faith! Faith that there is  God who's still waiting for you to tell Him what you're going through. Oo, mahirap, masakit, at nakakawalang-gana! Pero sinubukan mo na ba? Baka naman kasi naniwala ka na naman na kaya mo ang lahat o kaya mas naniwala ka sa thought na kapag may partner ka you can do everything. Maybe you're getting a wrong idea, all those happiness and satisfactions doesn't come from relationships and just loving yourself, it came from the source of everything. Stop fantasizing! Stop imagining things and live in the moment. Lagi ka kasing negative kaya ayan! Kung di ka naman negative oo ka lang ng oo! Galing mo di ba? Ang bait mo! Pero sa tingin mo ba ganyan din tingin nila saýo? HIndi!! Kaya gumising ka sa katotohanan na you also need to live for yourself. Stop comparing yourself to others and please other people but start to take a step forward to strive for excellence.