I wonder how
They don't know about
Me, how they don't
See the obvious set of
Clues left out for
Them, like a not so subtle
Christmas wish
List.
I don't see how they have
Ignored the obvious
Signs. How they don't see
Anything different to
Normal.
Like how it makes perfect
Sense that my bedroom walls
Are plastered with fifty faces of
My idols,
All Female
Singers. How the fact that the first
Movie I ever saw with my
Friends since I started
High school was a gay
love story.
Like how it isn't
Weird that I only support female contestants in talent shows. Like how
It is completely normal to only
Talk about female characters
Calling them
Cute or hot.
Like it makes sense that
I say 'ew boys' or 'ew
Men' on a daily
Basis. How no one bats
An eye that I am always
Texting my best friend, even
In the middle of family
Time.
Sometimes I wonder if
They are blind to
It, or just pretending
It's not happening.
~may 2018
