I think it's time
To let you go.
Because
I can't keep pining forever after you
Expecting you to forge feelings for me.
It's not fair, to blame you
For what's out of your control
Not fair to be mad
When you wish for someone close
When I've always been here for you
Right in front
Of you.
It's not right
To keep wanting you
After you've played me twice
And maybe those times
Weren't your fault, but mine
For trying to push you
In the direction I wanted
Forcing you to follow me
Down the winding road.
No, it's time
To let you go.
But,
That doesn't mean we can't be friends
Because even after everything
You're still the girl I stayed up late talking to
You're still the one who helped me discover who I was
You're still the one who put me on this crazy journey
Through words and rhythm.
You're still the one
Who showed me the poets
You're still the one
I joked with, played games with
Told secrets to.
And even now
You still make me smile
And ever so easily pull me into conversations.
You still know everything about me
And I still want to tell you about every new thing
Every crush
Every achievement
Every breakdown
Every single up and down in my life
Up till now
And until (hopefully)
The end of time.
So even though
My heart might not be in the same place it once was
Just know I won't let you go
~september 2019
