You're allowed to be happy.
The world won't stop turning
Just because you aren't angry or sad
For one day.
You're allowed to see the beauty of the world.
It doesn't have to be a dark and unjust place.
You're allowed to find the beauty
Even if it's just the blueness of the sky
Or the way the ocean sparkles
Or how the moon peaks out from the clouds.
You can take photos, you know.
Take them, store that beauty somewhere safe
To look at when the world dulls
For you.
You're allowed to make mistakes.
You're allowed to fall over
Again and again,
Collapse in the ground in fits
Of giggles,
Laugh until your cheeks ache.
You're allowed to say sorry
Try and fix it
Even if it's inevitably
Unfixable.
You're allowed to not forgive people.
Not your best friends
Or those closest to you
But you are allowed
To just ignore them
Not fight them
But eventually
Forget them.
You're allowed to heal.
It doesn't have to be overnight
But it's ok
If one day you wake up
And don't remember what it was that pushed you into that space in the first place.
You're allowed to get over things
Because one day
Maybe it will all be a distant memory
More someone else's pain
Than yours.
You're allowed to seek help.
Any kind, whether talking to people you trust
Or random strangers on the internet
Who will never know you.
You're allowed to admit
That things are too much
Sometimes
And you're allowed to not feel guilt
When you say it.
You're allowed to have ups and downs.
It's normal to be happy
Then sad
Then happy again.
It's ok to still want to talk
After all that
Even if you're in a happy place
Right then.
But don't discount the happiness
You have now,
Just because it's incomplete.
~you may not have it all, but you have enough.
~september 2019
