Kidnapped by 5sos

Depression

"Autumn?" Michael calls from outside the bathroom door. "What do you want?" I say sniffling. "Are you ok?" he says with worry viable in his voice. "Yes I'm fine I just have a stopped up noes." I say whipping the tears off my cheeks. "Well will you let me in?" he says shaking the doorknob a little. "Give me a minute" I say drying my tears and pulling my shorts on to cover the fresh cuts. I look in the mirror and make myself look a little presentable before opening the door. "Hey are your sure you're okay?" he says. "Yes why wouldn't I be okay?" I say forcing a smile. "You've just been acting different you're a little distant from us now..and I just thought maybe something was wrong." He says eyeing me. "I'm just not feeling well I think it's just a small cold." I say looking at the ground. It hurts lying to them when I so badly want to tell them what those guys did to me. "Well ok if you need anything at all let me know and I'll get it for you." he says walking over and giving me a hug. I flinched at first but remembered he wasn't going to hurt me so I wrapped my arms around him and held him tight. He let go and walked out of the room and I was left sitting on the bed.

~ 5 Days Later ~

"You look horrible" Calum says as he walks in my room. "Yeah I feel that way." I say not moving from my position in the bed. "Well do you want us to go get you some medicine?" he ask. "Nah, I'll be better in a few days." I say knowing full well that I'll never be "better". "Okay well let me know if you change your mind." He says heading towards the door. "Oh and we're leaving to go out to a party so we'll be back later." he says smiling. "Okay have fun" I say still laying in my position in the bed. I hear the door close and lock I roll over to make sure he's gone before I start to cry. I haven't felt this bad in forever I get up an move my mattress and grab my blades. I dig it deep into my flesh crying I watch at the first bit of blood runs down my thigh and then continue to cut my thigh until its completely covered in blood. I sit down beside my bed and put my head in my hands and start to sob. I grab the pillow on my bed an bury my face in it and start screaming I eventually throw it across the room and grab the blade again. I'm in the middle of shredding my thigh when the bedroom door opens and Ashton walks in.