I push my trolley along the salad isle in Sainsbury's and look for the best deals I can get. What's next? Spinach. I'm doing the weekly shop as I'm living with Tabby and Tilly. Jake is still in Nottingham and we will be starting our US tour in January so I'm soaking up our time in England before we are on the road again.
I go to the check out and buy all the stuff we needed and make my way out of the shop. I unload the shopping into my car and decide to go into town just to get some things for me.
So I do. I drive into town and park next to the cinema and choose to go to republic first. I get out the car and make my way over to the shops. Its a nice day, not raining and not too windy but quite cold, the sky is clear and it reminds me of a crisp morning watching the girls get ready for their dressage tests at a one day event. I never rode competitively because I didn't have the money but just riding for fun was good enough for me.
The shop was packed and I put the hood of my hoodie up on my head. I wasn't keen on being asked for a 'selfie' today. Anyway I looked around for any clothing I liked but couldn't find anything, all the good stuff was already gone and I figured it would be like that in any shop so I walked straight out, put my hood back down and made my way back to the car. When I heard something.
"Tommy!"
I stopped and sighed, I should of left my hood up. I fake a smile and as I turn round, expect a fan behind me but as I look I see something else. Something that I have been dreading to see all my life.
I stumble back and try to run off but he grabs my arm, "Tommy, I have been looking for you everywhere and couldn't find you... Oh tom I've missed you so much!"
Its Callum Bridges. My total nightmare of an ex boyfriend.
"Get off me you freak" I scream at him in shock.
"No tom, your meant to be happy!" He laughs and leans in to kiss me.
"NO! Piss off you pervert! I don't want anything to do with you!" I shout at him.
"What?" He sounds surprised for some odd reason, "but Tom, I came back. I knew you were here in London and, well I came back for you! tom I'm here!" The boy says with his Liverpudlian accent. "I have missed you so much!"
"What? You have missed me so much? Are you out of your mind? I can not describe the hatred I have for you. You are a sicko Call. Why the fuck are you here?" I screech at him.
"But... But..," he protests but I interrupt him.
"But what Call, you raped me you creep. I was 14 and you took me and hurt me. I was 14!"
"Oh. So you are angry about that?! Well let me tell you that wasn't rape! I was enjoying my girlfriend. I understand it was wrong and I'm a changed man now. So we can get back together."
"No callum! You really messed me up! And anyway I'm in a relationship."
"What! With whom?"
"Jake Bugg. You know, the hot one whose good with a guitar. The dick head that slated one direction. And do you know what? I'm in love with him!"
"I can't believe it. You in love? Your only a baby."
"No I'm not Call I'm 19. 20 in march. So go away. I don't want to see you."
"But I have been waiting this long to see you and... Your not, available."
"Well sorry." I brake free from his gaze and look at him with cold eyes. I walk away.
"You were good though. That night. When your Dad was out." He calls from a distance. And in that moment I swear I want to stab him. I sprint back towards him and spit in his face. "FUCK YOU"
I run away crying my eyes out and leaving him standing there in complete shock. People are staring at me. I have never treated anyone like that before and now I am so overwhelmed I just can't explain. But then another text comes through. One that is so disgusting I can't read all of it.
I sit down on the neatest bench and call Jake.
"Hello?"
"Hi, Jake, its Tom." I whisper
"Oh hi babe! How are you?"
"Fine... I... Fine, I just wanted to hear your voice. I just wanted to tell you I love you. I love you so much." I hang up and walk back to my car and drive home. Right home. Right back to Cornwall.
