Promise Me? 5sos Ashton Irwin

Chapter Fourty-One

ARIELS POV

3 months, 91 days, 2,190 hours, 7,884,008 seconds. That's how much time I spent with Ashton. Today is our 3 months. 3 months of laughs, kisses, conversations, cuddles, and so much more. Today is supposed to be a happy day. A day I spend cuddled up with my favorite person. Surrounded by my best friend and brothers. And maybe even have a date night. We'd probably go out and have a nice dinner to celebrate, where I'd get to see the loving look in his eyes whenever I catch him staring.

But it's not like that today. No. Instead I am here with my friends. At the airport, a place I don't want to be. Waiting for a plane, that I don't want to go on. I'm supposed to be laughing and happy, but right now I'm anything but that. Right now I'm standing here with a broken heart and a wet face. Right now I'm standing here with tears rushing down my face, in front of a few hundred people. A few hundred people that are looking at me with concern, sadness, pity, and some just give me weird looks. But I don't care. I can't bring my self to care.  I cant bring myself to care because the boy I love has decided that he didn't want to be with me anymore. That I was no longer good enough.

I would understand if it was because of something that I intentionally did. If I intentionally hurt him. But that's the thing, I didn't. Someone else did something and he got the wrong idea. So he decided that he didn't want me here anymore. He couldn't even look at me. He couldn't even let me explain fully. He wouldn't even let me stay there with my other friends.

So I'm here, crying in a airport, with my friends desperately trying to comfort me.

"It'll be ok sweetie" Robby said, rubbing my back with his hand, speaking in a voice I've rarely ever heard from him. It's the voice he speaks in when he feels bad for someone.

"How... Is it ever gonna be ok?" Turning my head to look at him as I speak in my broken voice. "The boy I love to death just sent me away. Over something I didn't want to be apart of. Someone that I thought was one of my best friends just ruined the best thing I had going for me. For his own selfish benefit. And he wouldn't even stick around to see the mess that he made. The asshole booked an emergency flight right after and is on a plane right now. While I'm here. In the same exact state as Ashton" I wiped my eyes as my voice started to crack with emotion. "But yet I can't be with him. Because he doesn't want me. He doesn't want me." I whispered, looking up to see my friends looking at me with such sadness in their eyes.

"When we get back home we'll find a way to fix this. We'll fix this honey." Casey wiped my tears from my face.

"How? He won't even see me." I sounded so broken. So, so broken. I didn't even recognize my voice anymore.

"Ari" Bailey said sadly, everyone know that no one had anything to say.

"I just don't know how to be without him. I know I was without him before, and I know that everyone else thinks that hes just a boy and that could and I should get over him. But how can I? How can I get over him when he's the one who taught me how to live. And I don't mean breathing but he taught me how to really live. The best moments of my life were with him. Before him, if I wasn't with you guys, I would cry and just hate myself. Every second of every day I would actively hate myself. I never wanted to live. I never actually liked life. After everything that I've been through, my life has become a living nightmare. He was the only light in my dark, twisted, fucked up life. And I don't know if I can go on without him. I can't go back to the way it was before. I refuse to sit there and wait because maybe my parents will bust through the door and make me hate myself even more. I refuse to just sit there and overthink about every wrong decision I've ever made." The tears we're coming down hard now. Nothing but broken sobs coming from my mouth after those heartbreaking, but true words.

My friends just started at me, looking at me with absolute pity, because they know what I said was the truth. They know that if I step on that plane and go back to my awful life without him, there is a big chance I will take my own life. The heartbreak is already too much for me now. I can feel my heart breaking with every second. And every second that passes is another second that he's not here, and pretty soon I have to step on a plane that will take me even farther from him.

"Flight to California boards in 10 minutes" a voice said through the intercom.

My breath hitched in my throat as I felt it tighten.

"Ari bug it's gonna be ok we'll be here through it, no matter how long it takes. And I know it doesn't count for much but you still have Calum, Michael, and Luke" Casey said desperately, in hopes that it will lift my mood even in the tiniest.

"I know C, I know. Thanks" I said.

"Flight to California boards in 5 minutes, all passengers please make your way to your assigned gate" the same voice flooded my ears, making my heart break even more.

They all gave me a sad smile as I unwillingly gathered my stuff and walked with them towards the gate.

We walked through security and we're waiting at the gate when we heard a whole bunch of screams.

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Sorry... Cliffhanger I know.

I'm trying to drag the ending on a little bit because unfortunately the book is coming to an end.

But anyway I hope you guys liked this.

If anyone is interested I will be writing a fanfiction after this. It will either be a Harry Styles fanfic, or Liam Payne. Im not sure which yet. Let me know if you guys have any suggestions.

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