Keep Me Close

Chapter 7: self debate

CHAPTER 7

I was left there. All alone. I didn't feel hungry anymore. I stood up, brushed my dress and walked out of the hall. I walked through the corridor surrounded with flowers and stared at a big bunch of roses. White roses. I sighed and thought to myself. If only this were another perfect day, I could've enjoyed the hidden beauty of the castle.

But no. this wasn't another perfect day. Jack had to arrive today and spoil it. I thought of Jack and felt a searing pain in my stomach.

"Aaargh!" I exclaimed and held on to my stomach. One of the gardeners nearby rushed to me immediately and asked if I was alright. I nodded and he left after I asked him to.

You Hurt him Elsa. You deserve pain.

"What rubbish! The only person hurt here is me! He hurt me"

How come there's not a tiny hint of guilt in you?

"Don't blame me! You were the one who asked me to keep distance!"

Not like this of course! You embarrassed him in front of your sister and Kristoff. Didn't you even notice the pain in his face?

"I did. He caused equal amount of grief to me. He deserved it."

So this was all about revenge?

"Yes. I'm sure he won't hurt me, or anyone like that again."

You're a shame Elsa! Even though I am a part of you. You are terrible! You are telling me that you want to see the man you love suffer?

"Once loved. Update yourself. And yes, I want to see him suffer."

No. You still love him. And you are willing to do anything for him to love you back. Since you know that won't happen, you're keeping away.

"What?! No! That is a... Ridiculous made-up story!"

You hesitated.

"Did not!" I fought with my alter ego as I entered my bedroom.

Did too! Accept it! You still love him!

That was it. That was my breaking point. "Oh gods! What am I going to do?!" I told aloud and ran to my bed. I jumped on it and curled up into a ball.

Apologize...

"Never!"

Fine. You're losing him. Every minute. Every second. You know that he will start hating you any moment.

"Let him! He's not going to love me when it's the other way round!"

Elsa. He did mess with your feelings. He did make you cry. He did charm you. But... he believed in you. He came back for you. He gave you the warmth you needed. Or perhaps he showed you how the cold felt. Agree with the fact that his breath was the first thing that touched you and made you feel cold, sending shivers down your spine.

"He did... But how do I apologize? What do I do? And Anna will be upset too. How do I apologize to her? She's extra sensitive. She thinks I'm an insensitive beast!"

Pfft... Puh-lease. She's your sister. An insensitive beast is the last thing she'll think you are.

"But-"

Go Elsa. You can do it. Go prove yourself.

I didn't bother arguing anymore. I walked to the mirror, did my hair and make-up, and I thanked my reflection and walked out of my room. I walked toward the garden where Jack was leaning on to Anna's left shoulder and Kristoff on her right shoulder. I was amazed at the sight. I had to accept it. My sister was an amazing person and probably the best.

I walked to them slowly and heard slow sniffles. I hid behind the bushes immediately. And I heard them talk.

"Jack. It's alright. Everything will be fine. Elsa is an extremely sweet person. Just extremely stubborn at times." I heard Anna say. Did she just call me stubborn?

I heard more sobs "But Anna, I was only trying to please her. She means a lot to me, after all she is the only other person with powers like me." Jack said between his sniffing. Wait! Was Jack Frost crying?

"Stop crying and be a man bud!" Kristoff said immediately.

"He's not crying Kristoff. He's just upset. And after what happened to him in there, I think he has every right to feel so." Anna said and put her arm around Jack shoulder and patted his back.

I decided that walking from behind them wouldn't please them very much. So, I walked to the other side of the garden and started my way towards them like I hadn't been there at all. I could see Anna alert Jack and Jack wiping his eyes.

You made him cry Elsa! You insensitive-

"Now's not the time. Shut up and stay like that." I muttered under my breath to my alter ego.

I approached them slowly and gracefully. I stood in front of them and bent my head down.

"What is it Els-" Anna trailed off when I fell to the ground and wept onto her lap. "Hey, hey. It's okay Elsa. It's okay." She said and ran her hand over my hair.

"I'm so s-sorry Anna! I was being such an arrogant... arrogant crazy woman!" I wept as I said. I swear there were no fake tears. I was truly sorry.

"Elsa... You need to control your anger, but no matter what, never ever forget that I'm here for you." Anna said sweetly.

I looked at her and smiled in between my tears, and then turned to Jack who was clearly surprised. I moved a little towards him, still sitting down and threw myself on him and hugged him as I cried.

"I'm so sorry Jack! I-I hurt you so bad! You were being so nice and I just had to spoil it!" I said and I felt him wrap his arms around me. Then I felt his head rest on mine and a shiver ran down my body.

"Hey. It's alright Elsa. You didn't spoil anything. And if you think that I hate you, then you're wrong." He held up my chin using his fingers, making me face him "I'll never hate you." He finished and I blushed slightly, hopefully not enough or them to see it.

"So, can we start over?" I asked him softly looking down.

"As friends?" he asked back in the same voice pitch, soft and angelic.

"As friends." I confirmed his question and he smiled.

We smiled at each other and I wanted to sit there right in front of him forever. Staring at him. Oh, what a view. I shook my thoughts mentally and reminded my brain that we were only going to be friends.

"So... 'Friend'... you better teach me how to make an alive snowman." Jack said to break the tension and I giggled.

"I will." I said and lay my head on Anna's lap.

"Isn't this wonderful?! All of us together." Anna said softly.

"It is." I said and smiled to myself.

A/N Hey guys! Updated early! Or at least I think of it as pretty early... :)
I'll update the next chapter soon?

I'm still going through the Blood of Olympus hangover. I'm writing a continuation for it. I'm not exactly posting it right now. If I like the way it's going then maybe...

-Bhavna