Melody Young
I don't understand why they have to make this so nerve racking. You make an appointment, then you have to wait for the day of the appointment, then when you get to the office you have to sit in the waiting room for forever and three days before they take you to the back, and once you get there it's a million and one things you have to do before the doctor even comes in to see you.
"and there it is." she pointed at the large tv on the wall in front of the table that I was laying on.
"this is a joke, you gotta be kidding me." I said as I looked at the screen.
"no, it's not a joke." she laughed. Doctor Lacy was a little annoying sometimes, but as a doctor she was above anyone that I've ever seen before. You could tell that she really cared about her patients and really enjoyed her job, and she was enjoying it so much that she wasn't paying attention to me having a full-blown panic attack on the tablet. "isnt this excited. You're going to be a mommy."
"isnt," I replied.
"What?" she asked.
"it kind of isnt." I said to her. She nodded.
She took a couple of pictures then excused herself from the room so that she could give me a chance to get redressed. Once I was done she came back into the room and gave me the pictures and a dvd recording of the baby's heartbeat. She sat down on her stool and for the first time since ive started seeing her she looked at me without a smile.
"You're not happy," was all that she said.
"i didn't prepare for this," I replied.
"a lot of women that I see are in a position that is arguable a lot worse than yours and they are on the top of the world learn that they're having a child. Ive seen homeless woman, unmarried women, jobless woman, and even a few with terminal illnesses that would make having a baby dangerous to their health and all of those women are way happier learning about a new baby that what you seem to be right now."
"i just don't think that this is the right time for this to be happening." I replied. "i didn't plan for any of this. "
"you know, you don't have to plan your entire life," she replied. "but, as a doctor it isn't my place to tell you what to do. It's my job to educate you. So im gonna give you some pamphlets so that you can explore your options, but I'm also going to give you some samples of some prenatal vitamins, and schedule your first prenatal care appointment. Just in case you need it." she said. "go home and have a talk with your husband and then the two of you can make a decision on what next together."
I went back home after the appointment and luckily nobody was home. Both kirsnick and my dad were at work so I had a chance to hide away everything that I had gotten from the doctor's office in a place were neither one of them would find it.
"you okay?" I looked up from the plate of food in front of me and over the table at him. He was looking right at me.
"yeah, I'm fine." I replied.
"you just looking at your plate like there is something wrong with it." he replied.
"i just don't have much of an appetite." I replied.
"you not feeling good?" my dad asked me. He was looking at me crazy too. I must have really been just staring at my plate.
"no, I feel fine, just not too hungry." I answered. I forced myself to eat sa much as I could because i was getting more and more nauseous with each bite. I don't know if it's because of the kid or if I was just stressed but either way, I didn't want to eat this stuff.
I finished as much as I could choke down and went up to take a shower, by the time kirsnick got upstairs I was in bed with the covers pulled all the way up over my head. I laid there and listened as he took a shower and when he came and got in the bed the smell of the soap radiating from him was making my nose burn.
"you sure you okay?" he asked me.
"yeah I'm fine, my head is just hurting." I lied. I went to bed that night feeling like I was going to explode from holding it all in. I'm not ready for this. I don't think I'll ever be ready for this, and I'm going to have to tell everyone that I'm having a baby and just that simple fact alone has me losing my mind
I don't know what I'm going to do.
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The CEO's Wife
FanfictionY/n and takeoff story: It was supposed to be a simple arrangement. she would be his wife and he would buy her freedom. little did they know, this simple transaction would turn both of their worlds upside down.
