Dare (A Kaisoo Fanfic)

Twenty-Seven

Kyungsoo

I seriously hated time. It seemed like no matter what it was always working against me. Whenever my life was going great, it went by so fast. But whenever it was horrible, it took its precious time ticking by.

I checked the mail every day for three weeks, some times multiple times a day. It was the first thing I did once I got home. There was nothing besides the usual bills and such. There was just nothing. 

You should just give up. He forgot about you.

That's what my head told me. I turned to my heart for more encouraging words, but even it was starting to feel less and less optimistic.

He doesn't want you anymore. He's moved on. 

I tried shake the thoughts off, but it just had a quicksand effect. The more I tried, the deeper I sank into my worst nightmares.

He's not coming back. He doesn't love you anymore.

It was over, I had to accept that. The battle I was constantly fighting with myself had to end. I was tired of fighting it, too. I was tired of carrying all of my happiness and hopes and dreams with one person. I was tired of feeling powerless. So, I told myself that as long as he was happy, I would be fine. And as my therapist said, first love didn't mean last love. I would be happy again one day, too. I was determined to be.

Chanyeol

"What do you mean you're giving up??" Baekhyun said loudly at lunch, turning practically every other head in the cafeteria. Kyungsoo sighed and took a sip from his water bottle. 

"I'm giving up. I'm done thinking that he'll come back," he said plainly.

"B-But, how can you just do that?" Luhan asked. 

"I don't expect you guys to understand," he said, resting his back against the chair. "It's almost graduation and he hasn't even found a way to write me back or call or anything. I can't keep waiting for a message that will never come."

"Have you met his parents? At this point, he probably has to train a pigeon to deliver the letter," Tao said.

"Still, I'm just tired," he replied with a small shake of his head. "Tomorrow is the first day of our last summer before we graduate and go to college and I'd like to at least try to enjoy it."

"Are you sure this is what you want to do?" I asked. He turned to me. 

"No, but it's what I have to do," he said. 

There was so much doubt in his eyes. I knew this wasn't the way he wanted things, but I also couldn't tell him to do anything else. 

Kai

Months seemed to fly by and before I knew it, the town was filled with summer weather and dreams of graduation. My time was mostly consumed by Zelo and Taemin, which I didn't mind too much. I was doing well academically and managed to catch up enough to be on track to still graduate on time. In particular, I enjoyed my elective art classes. They were kind of like an escape for me, a way for me to take my mind off the chaos going on around me.

Even though I was preoccupied with new friends and interests, I still always thought about Kyungsoo, what he was doing, if he missed me, if he thought about me as much as I thought about him.

Those were the times when I felt like an asshole. I thought about all of the things I said we would do in the summer and hated myself because we wouldn't get to do them.