Every Lifetime I Fall {COMPLETED but undergoing revisions}

Chapter 107: Fifth Life - I Know it's You Too

"Damn you, Yi Fei. What did you tell him? Has our friendship meant nothing to you?! And your stupid disciple, Ming Yan couldn't keep her mouth shut!"

This time I wasn't thinking it, but expressing my anger directly at Yi Fei.

"I'm sorry, Yuxing," she apologizes.

Pacing back and forth in her study, I go on lecturing her. "You shouldn't have talked to him at all! Keep your distance! He's an evil demon. If he founds that I really am Luo Na Li, he's going to make my life miserable."

"Yuxing, I know you have animosity towards Yang Zi Huo, but you have to remember that he was once my foster brother."

I stop my steps and sigh. The look on her face makes me feel bad for taking my anger out on her.

"Sorry," I muttered. Sitting down next to her on a padded bench in front of her desk, I bump into her left shoulder.

"He was a sweet little boy back then. Wanted to heal the world from all the pain and hurt."

I interrupt her nostalgia. "Except now he's the cause of suffering."

Yi Fei glares at me.

"He's still a nice and gentle person, all right? He's not a bad demon you make him out to be."

"Well, he's not an immortal god with a saint like reputation too, okay?"

"I know that. He has his flaws. Everyone does. But you're exaggerating your hatred, so that you won't have to confront your feelings for him."

I stand up. "Look. I don't have any feelings for him. I hate him because of all the shit he's put me through."

"I know, but he's the only person I still have here ever since I woke up. The only person still here besides you, even though he doesn't remember me. I don't want to lose him. You're my friend, can't you understand?"

I understood her to some extent. She awoke in an entirely new world. The people she loved were no longer living for hundreds of years, even Kong Shuguang has died and become someone else.

"I understand because you're holding onto someone familiar, but I tell you he's not Kong Shuguang anymore. He's a cold and ruthless demon now."

"So you're saying he has no elements of his past selves? Technically, he is still Lu Kai because he never reincarnated."

"He's not Lu Kai anymore."

"Are you sad he's not Lu Kai anymore?"

"Tsk! I don't care. Either way, I won't forbid you from seeing that demon, but you two cannot discuss about me."

"Every time Sect Leader Yang visits Invigorating Essence, it is to talk about you. He wonders what foreign land you had traveled to, how you're doing. He never had the courage to ask you these things himself."

"I find that hard to believe as he takes what he wants when he wants it."

"He wanted to make sure you were really Li Rong Xin's reincarnation. I tried my best to not let him on."

"Yeah, but that disciple of yours revealed to him my soul essence is similar to Li Rong Xin. But why did you tell him about me and Kong Shuguang? I didn't mean to not talk just about my past lives as Luo Na Li and Li Rong Xin but any other past lives where I knew that demon."

"He was visiting me almost every day, so I just gave him a clue."

"Why?"

"I don't know. Maybe in my heart I want you two to reconcile."