Her Diary

Epilogue: 4/18/24

Dear Diary,

Long time no entry, my dear. It's been what, eleven years? A lot has happened since then and quite honestly, I regret nothing. Because now, I have a four year old boy, a two year old girl, twins on the way, and a loving husband by my side. They're the epitome of my world. My life goes around just for them.

After the arrest, Mark faced court where was charged for third degree statutory rape which is five years in prison and a fine of ten thousand dollars. I didn't go to his hearing. I couldn't see him that way. It was way too hard.

As for me, no matter what Mark has done, I was still expelled. My family moved to a different state and I finished high school online and got my high school diploma. But because of the affair, none of the college accepted me. I tried, I swear, I really did. I applied for thousands and every single one of them turned me down.

For a couple of years, I didn't speak to Jonah. Actually, come to think of it, I didn't speak to anyone. My brother was angry at me for the same span of time, anyways. It was only Brad and my mom who really tried to break through my broken self. But of course, in a way, Jonah managed to do that. He also had my brother and I go back to the way we were.

A couple of years after Jonah and I went back to the way we used to, we started to date. A year into dating, we made the decision of moving in a miniscule apartment. It had no rooms. It was pretty much just one big room with a stove and a fridge. It was all we could afford at that time. He was still in school and I worked at a family restaurant so money was scarce.

A year after the roller coaster of living with him, he finally proposed. He proposed on the deck of the beach house we used to go during the summer when we were just little kids. There were Christmas lights hung everywhere, candles lit around the deck, and pizza on the table.

I thought that was the funnies thing; seeing pepperoni pizza on a very fancy, well prepared, romantic dinner. In the end of that night, he went down on one knee and asked me to be his wife. I couldn't say no, of course. My heart fluttered and loves him.

We got married as soon as he finished school and settled into a new job. We moved into a smaller home where our baby boy was made and celebrated his first birthday but after that, Jonah got a job as a lawyer. First he started out helping people who cannot afford one. It didn't pay very much but he was happy with it. When our baby girl joined the family, though, that was when Jonah really started to seek for a better paying job. Now, he works for a blooming oil company and he can't love it any more.

I heard from Brad's mother that when Mark was released, he couldn't find a job because child molester was written on his records. It was there permanently. The only job that would hire him was McDonalds.

I can't help but feel as if that was my entire fault. He gave up everything just for me yet we didn't get our happy endings. But thinking about it now as an adult, would I have really ended up with Mark? No, probably not. I can't imagine my life without my children and husband. I just hate the fact I ruined someone's life for me to realize the person I really do want to spend the rest of my life with was right there in front of me all my life.

A year or so ago, Mark sent me a letter. For days, I had the urge to read it. Sometimes, in the middle of the night, I just stared at it, glaring for it to open all on its own. Until I made the decision that he cannot control me. So I ripped it up , shredded it, and threw it away.

Now, I am happy. I cannot say I am happy with no regrets but I am happy, none the less and that's all that matters.

A/N: It is finally over, my darlings! I think it was a pretty rad ending! If you'd like an alternate ending, please do comment below because I do have another ending planned that may be more to your satisfactory but to be honest with y'all, I actually really love this ending. So oops  .-. Anyways, my beauties, thank you for reading! It was fun writing this story!

 

~With lots of love, Jai ♥