offenderman x Male reader (lemon)

a/n

I'm sorry guys. I usually only do announcements when something good happens, but this time nothing good is happening.

My bestfriend is moving away. We live in the states and they are moving to Germany. Now this might not seem too bad but it just really sucks. In a couple of other stories I have mentioned her. I have either called her Neck, Monique, or both.

My father is out of prison. I don't really know the guy but it's still confusing. I mean my whole life my mom has always said that I could contact him. I found out because he's hanging out with my friends mom. I now have a number that I could call, but everyone has advised me not to.

My aunt died. I just got a call from my aunt Mo, saying that my aunt Colleen died. I loved Colleen. My fucking middle name is Colleen. She was an alcoholic with one kidney (bc she gave her other one to my uncle.) that was failing. She was 86 pounds and 47 years old.

Now all of these sad emotions x20 because I'm on my period.

I really wanna kill myself. I won't do that bc we can't handle any more death. I just don't know what to do.