Special

22. How It Ended

Traveling back to the present, Hayes and I are still going strong. Our families always plan to see each other during breaks and holidays. It works out pretty well and to be completely honest, for a long distance relationship, we've lasted for what feels like a lifetime.

I am no longer afraid to say that I'm dating Hayes, not that I was from the start, I just don't like answering questions. Anyways, I'm in love with that kid. I wanna grow up with him, you know? I wanna marry this kid. I've never been able to say something like that about someone before.

The fact is, were so young. Anything could happen at this very moment. Something good, bad, or just a mistake could ruin things.

It makes me think. A relationship is as fragile as you make it. If you're careless about your partner, nothing will come of it. If you put in the work, things will grant you success. It's not even just relationships that are fragile, it's everything. Life, death, emotions, people...Anything you can think of.

It just teaches you how careful you must be in order to maintain something you love. It's not an easy thing, you know. Especially with the distance between Hayes and I. But just the way we handle things shows how we're going to be.

I am nothing special. Well at least to me. To Hayes? To everyone else? I'm everything there is about special. I've never felt this way before with someone. It's new to me and I have absolutely no clue how to react to any of it, still to this day.

I don't want to sound clingy but I literally cannot live without this kid. He's saved my life and he's made me feel like I matter from the start. Not to mention, him along with others, got rid of my terrible jealous-filled ex. I couldn't be more grateful for that.

Blah blah blah, about the lovey-dovey stuff.

Hayes is actually here right now, they just pulled up into our drive way. I'm so excited, I tell you. I haven't seen him in years. I'm glad to finally hold him in my arms again.

To end this correctly, I want to let you know. If you want something, chase after it. If others tell you no, you tell yourself yes. If your friendship is ruined over a boy, push that aside and realize that you're friends for a reason. If you ever feel like complete crap, find someone to talk to. Don't ball it up and throw it away. You matter, we all do.

It's not about if you find someone 'special' to you, it's about if someone finds you special.

Well that's Hayes now, I've got to go. I can practically hear my name from a mile away.

I guess this is goodbye, I don't know. I'm not very good at these. You know I'd still write to you till I'm not breathing. Either way, I've got to go see my future husband.

Oh god, look what you've turned me into.

Haha, but really. I guess I'll be cheesy and say this instead.

This isn't goodbye, it's I'll see you soon.